Prometheus

Redesign

2010-11-30T00:12:00.003+08:00

This blog look looks utterly lame.

I will fucking change it..

hopefully..

so scram!

till further notice*

Making History

2010-11-28T00:58:00.001+08:00

5 goals in one match.. trashing Blackburn 7-1.

Thank you for making my day berbatov!

Things couldn't just get better now.

Faded

2010-11-24T14:34:00.000+08:00

Dreams can be shattered if you can't keep the promises..

For example..

I couldn't understand whats been going with me for the past months,

It's like I can't do the things that I love, like designing the works that I had, I had lost my touch of drawings..

I'm beginning to fail myself, I had the worst performance of my life in semester 5.

and still I couldn't figure out why?!

People surrounding me couldn't understand what I've been through..

All they think is their advice is right and just move the fuck on!

well, fuck you! All those words are worthless if you cant put your finger on the problems I've had for the past months.

You cant look through it, you cant analyze it for me..and if you cant do those shit, shut the fuck up!

YOUR MAKING IT WORST!!

the only way is I handle it my own..

I'm better on my own, I never needed help in my life, I struggle alone, I face my problems alone, I face my fear alone, everything I do is ALONE!

I don't like to involve others as is because its not their problems and if anything happens to them, it will be ON ME!!!

Now, thank God everything is over for awhile, Hoping for a great Christmas alongside old buddy's of mine, and I couldn't be more happier than before..

and Baba Vanga, stop predicting the world will be in shattered misery next year.. I still have my hopes and dreams to reach pier beach..don't let us humans down, we still wanna live a beautiful life..

Who cares?

2010-10-20T14:40:00.000+08:00

I don't give a fuck anymore... What I get in return was always a smack in the face.. I'm tired of everything, Now I'll do everything I can just to get the fuck out of this fucking place!

You heard me.. FUCK IT! SUCK IT UP YOU ARSE!

I don't care

2010-10-16T18:26:00.000+08:00

the title says it all......

All I want

2010-10-07T00:42:00.000+08:00

All I wanted the most is now

to start a new life

start from scratch

from new friends to new home for myself.

I need a new hope..

I'm desperate to find one..

everyday it hurts me for what I'm about to go through..

some of my friends were heartless, disrespect and fucking rude!

all I did was doing my work and ignoring the possibilities of other worlds thats happening surrounding me..

but still, they come back to haunt me like i'm a piece of meat..

I just cant stand it..

I can break down anytime..

I mean I love all my friends no matter what they did.

I still love all of you, my family,my pets my hometown..

but everything seems to be some sort of shattered memories thats ready to be erase and to be thrown at my face..

and you think it's funny, if I was the same old bad kid like the last time.

I bet you'll be thinking twice about who are you messing with..

I just want to have a normal, simple, entertaining, lovable life, and most importantly.. privacy!

I hate those FUCKING gossip who think they are the single most funniest people in the whole wide world,

if there was a gun right now, I would have shoot you in fucking balls and arse!

God, thats all im asking.. I dont want to be in my hometown anymore, I just wanna be in my dream world now, the place that i've been chasing for years and years..

hopefully in 9 months..I'll be there..

and I hope i'll be given a chance..to change myself to a better person that now..

Burn

2010-09-15T12:38:00.000+08:00

I hate this freaking place already.

Home, yea..Fuck that! Everything seems to be a fucked up thing.

Every week surely there will be a mess that has to do with us.

Who the FUCK do you think you are?

Were not your fucking dogs you bitch!

I cant run away from those mess as long I'm still here, Ignoring will be worst.

so how stupid can you guys be anyway?

If you think your right all the time, then stop messing around with people like us.

We din't want any of this either, yet you say its our fault!

Stupid, imbecile, low life scum!

I..HATE..THIS..FREAKING..PLACE!

If I ever had a chance to leave now to a better place,

I would take it!

Changes

2010-09-02T16:52:00.001+08:00

I believe in what I'm capable of

The reason why I cant make it right

Thats because I dint help myself

I dint put faith in myself.

So now I see it..

I want to get those things going and start myself a new way of improving myself

This is just the beginning.

10 more months.

and I'm out of this freaking hell town of mine!

I countdown the days and months cause it keeps my dream alive!

and I WILL NOT LET THAT DREAMS FADE AWAY!

not even a little!

Where I'm going is where my dreams are waiting for me.

and I'm going to achieve that no matter what it takes

Whatever my friends says about my dreams,

I see you as a Negative impression..

If You are my friend, then you yourself should have a dream of your own and chase it!

Why stop me if I'm not stopping you..

Whats wrong with me?

2010-08-31T13:10:00.000+08:00

I open my lungs, to breath in forgiveness and love

Haunting me now reminders of how I used to be

And on the road my troubles are sure to follow

Looking out the window, the hell if I know where will I go

I cant wait to leave.

I'm begging to leave..

I hated it here

I hate.

The Loser

2010-08-15T15:41:00.000+08:00

When that feelings come

Its just felt like I'm an idiot..I take things for granted.

I regret for all the things and chances I have not taken..

I cant stand my own attitude either..

I'm glad im not doing this on anyone, cause I know it would hurt them..badly

Why cant that attitute of mine change?

Well it sucks to be me..

It does.

Indeed I am the Loser.

but No matter how loser am I.. God is always there..I know he is.

He's the only one who knows what I'm going through..

I wish to change in this coming months.

If only we could really wish..

Answered Prayer

2010-08-09T17:32:00.000+08:00

It sounds like a Dream come true..

finally, I can finally breath easily for the 1st time in my entire life

Taking my own world to Perth would be a great idea

Now I cant wait to Graduate next year, but I know I have to struggle and work hard to obtain a better results than before.

but still, a relive that I was given a green light to go there.

but I'm still not giving up on my chase to California.

couldn't think much now..so hopefully my Prayers are answer again next year.

lets see what fate lies ahead of me

Thank You GOD!

Let me go

2010-08-07T14:37:00.000+08:00

Going insane..

Insane again and again!

1 more year, and I'm finally free from everything!

The lies and every single Fucking thing!

FUCK YOU ALL!

people shit!

The Sins of My Young

2010-08-05T22:37:00.000+08:00

I should stop myself from Chasing you

I though I had a Chance..

Once again...I'm a dumb guy! When will I ever learn?!

My own mistakes lead to this unsolved problem of mine

Me..

I've had enough, Chasing my dreams are better than Chasing You..

Chances not Taken!

2010-08-01T18:12:00.000+08:00

I know what to do after all.

Research always works for me..

And I hope my plan and thinking will be working.

Hoping for it happen, means I have to take this patiently for a month or two

Will it succeed?

Well,I hope..Whatever plans I have, It's always been working..

Get ready to get Shock my friends(if it does happen)

If it doesn't..then Move Along is the only thing I can do.

I will survive?

2010-07-31T21:55:00.000+08:00

Why does it has to turn it out this way?!

~~Fuck!!!~~

Why cant I stop being depressed for at least a month!

Things just go from bad to worst.

Killing myself would make hell and misery to others instead.

I felt like jumping from a cliff! and hoping that everything were back and start over again in the beginning..

God..help me in this one..

I just cant take it!

I felt the burden on my shoulder and my head felt like it's going to freaking explode into thin air!

whatever that means..

miss the beach somehow..dint get to see the sunset and sunrise! =[

Say

2010-07-31T17:56:00.001+08:00

I don't want you

Cause i wasn't chasing you!

Ahh.... Why does it have to turn out this way around??!

Why does my Love life have to be difficult?

I tried my best, but in the end..it turns out to be different..

I meant different results..

and Friends are always there to not believe in you when your telling the truth.

call that a FRIEND huh..

Closer To You

2010-07-30T10:38:00.000+08:00

All that I'm after is life full of laughter

As long I'm laughing with you

All that still matter is a Love ever after.

The 5th Wave!

2010-07-28T23:26:00.001+08:00

Survived semester 4!

Results were..

well Sucks...what the heck?!

I din't repeat any subject,that matters..

And i swear on my Cats grave i need to change my habit of sending my work late!!

Like that will ever happen!

Time

2010-07-26T15:46:00.000+08:00

It fly's by us Fast enough till we din't even notice it

Changes everyone at the same time

Had I change?

That question is only for God to know

I felt miserable each day

I never knew why...

Never did

5 more months till 2011

How i cant wait for that day to come..

From that day onwards

I wanted my life means something

and To find the purpose of my living my life

Empty Again

2010-07-25T16:18:00.000+08:00

I tried to fill some emptiness

Till i had it all spilled over

Everything's so far away

That I don't know who I am

When all that i wanted

And all that I have

Don't seem so much

For Me to Hold On..

Your mind is the scene of the crime

2010-07-24T22:53:00.000+08:00

Watch the movie twice now

I have to watch it one more time, this time.. with a proper attire

For two times I've been watching the movie with short pants

And it ain't fun

Cause it was freezing cold

Inception was

Mind blowing! Epic Movie!

Dream on Christoper Nolan

Pain..Its just a Simple Compromise

2010-07-23T22:36:00.000+08:00

I will never bother You

never promise to

never ~~follow~~ you( i never did)

never ~~bother~~ you (even this)

never speak a word again

I will crawl away away for good

Things have never been so swell

I have never failed to fail

Pain!

You know your right

*this goes to you for forgetting your own friends who had been with you over the years

yet, i still want to forgive but i felt like Killing myself instead

Dead Tired

2010-07-23T21:50:00.001+08:00

Rock climbing

I know its a nice and cool sports..

I though it was easy

well, I though...

Now I'm dead tired

I cant feel my hands and legs

My head is the only thing that survived, well mostly..

Belia program was far most tired event ever

Eventually it was my fault.

Careless about myself..

but Overall everything was Fun.. Worth it..and uhh.. thats about it?

I'm still in Pain while blogging now.

Love-less

2010-07-22T00:13:00.000+08:00

I've been so trying hard

but not hard enough, to try/show and to love someone. which is not my 'gf' but still a friend.

I don't have that much confident in myself nowadays..why?!

I just don't want to ruin a perfect Friendship

I never want to make the same mistakes twice..

But i just kept thinking bout it everyday

plus that Dreams of mine which makes it worst for myself

I think by Christmas I'll be crazy, unsecured,hopeless and broken

If this problem and attitude of mine goes on

I could end up like HIM!

hopefully not.

that would be THE END of me.

Was it a dream?

2010-07-21T18:32:00.000+08:00

I hated it when it suddenly happens in a Dream

Makes me wonder

How am i suppose to cope with my studies with this kind of situation

It Sucks real bad

Plus i hated it when someone kept saying whats the point of you going there?

Well, smart ass..

Its my life dammit! Not yours!

Who are you to judge me where i wanted to live my dreams

Chances to be different and to see different side of the world!

and No one is stopping me, no one!

Few more weeks to class begins

and I'm raring to go and do my work

Ignore others,do my work and save myself

(according to one my lecturers)

When he told me that 2 semester ago..

I dint take that seriously

till now

The Signal

2010-07-20T15:38:00.000+08:00

7 more days

for season 2

of ALAN WAKE!

Monday Blues

2010-07-19T15:50:00.000+08:00

For the first time since my Holiday

It was the most relaxing Monday Morning ever

I slept well

I dint have to do any work

Like driving and all that.

Just relaxing

Then hopefully tonight will get to hang out with Friends that i hadn't met since Holiday started

Things just couldn't get any better

From Yesterday

2010-07-18T21:35:00.000+08:00

I wanna bury my head in the sands

I wanna forget about all the shit and fucked up things that had ever happen to me

I just want to be Free

From everything

I want to start a New Life

For myself

Its that a Bad Thing to ask?

If it isn't

Then why is it so hard just to Reach it?

That Picture

2010-07-18T17:11:00.000+08:00

When Dreams can eventually makes me desperate for that Reality

Its been awhile now since i started to lose my mind.

I don't really care what it takes to reach that dreams of mine

I will find a way

and

I will never Give up..

Oceanside,California.

wait for me.

Misguided

2010-07-16T23:38:00.000+08:00

Seems that chasing my impossible dreams

seems pretty Impossible after all

that burden i felt.

i really wanna leave this Hell

i hated it so much

i hated the situation more every time as i woke in the morning thinking that i could not reach my dreams

I cant stop thinking about it everyday..

It echo me in circles 24-7

i couldn't sleep properly

i couldn't eat

i couldn't think

i couldn't play games

i cant even think properly

i really do wish that i can make a wish through airplanes

i wanted start a new life for myself

but that pain, is just a simple compromise.

i couldn't care less about myself now

i felt like Giving Up for real.

in everything

Disturbed

2010-07-14T02:13:00.000+08:00

Im disturbed enough already

Stop bothering me!

My mind is going insanely crazy like shit!

Holidays

2010-07-10T20:42:00.000+08:00

Its Holiday, and i'm bored to D e a t h ! !

I was suppose to be happy but i wasn't..

Sleepless night, do some routine work, alone at home staring at the wall

for Christ sake even the walls in my room are sick of me staring at them!!

My cat & dog ignores me, sleep & eat thats all they do..

I dint even went to Rainforest!

i know it'll be bored and expensive, unlike last time which is more nicer!

no offence, im just moody now..

~sigh~

next semester im sem 5!

hope to relive my Dreams from there,

so that i can get the FUCK OUT OF HERE!

Life sucks?

2010-07-10T19:06:00.001+08:00

Is it?

I just need to find that simple answer on whats the meaning and the purpose of my life..

and then i wont say it ~~SUCKS~~!!

Nick Vujicic

2010-07-08T00:14:00.000+08:00

He inspires me starting this month!

Dont give up, Keep chasing your dreams!

he has No Arms No Legs.. yet he says No worries

Thank you Nick!

2011..a year before the end of the world...

2010-05-11T21:44:00.000+08:00

Will i reach my dreams next year?

can i do it?

i know i can.

when i'm push to my limits.. i am capable of doing anything..

i just have to trust on myself..

i just need a little Faith for myself

i'll do whatever it takes to reach that impossible dreams of mine..

Who am i?

2010-04-11T16:48:00.000+08:00

I'm a Loser

yay!

so go fuck yourself you people who thinks shit about me!

i have the right to do what i want!

it's my freaking LIFE!

not YOURS!!

bitches!!

Jam Mode

2010-04-05T22:52:00.003+08:00

What if i wanted to break

Laugh it all off in your face

What would you do?

What if i fell to the floor

Couldn't take this anymore

What would you do, do, do?

Come Break me down

Bury me bury me

i am finished with you

[ performing the kill of 30 seconds to mars ]

Jamming

letting the real me out..

and forget those shitty things that happen to me before.

Fear The Future

2010-03-23T12:52:00.000+08:00

Another Horror Survivor Game

That keeps me awake!

Love the details and Story lines.

Nice game play too

but still i cant wait for Alan Wake

so Fear The Future..

I can sleep Happy Now

2010-03-21T23:37:00.000+08:00

2 - 1 is all Utd need..

Thank You Park JeSung!

and of course Rafa, who hated his own players..

whoops.

hah..

Glory Glory Man Utd!

8 games to go

2010-03-21T21:54:00.000+08:00

Who will win?

it's 1-1 now. in 23rd min..

God i hope Man Utd Win...

Why?

2010-03-21T21:09:00.000+08:00

ever wonder why, ask yourself first.

your still in ME n my MIND

Discombabulate

2010-03-21T19:47:00.001+08:00

Seems to be that i'm improving my life

REASONS:

I've done my work on time

I just do the Job and Go

Ignoring the past

but,i still felt there's something missing

..i just cant keep my mind off of it..

Everyone tells me I've changed but the truth is, I've just stop living my life their way.

This came from my heart that you've hurt

2010-03-17T22:39:00.000+08:00

Why me?

Why i was the unlucky guy for you?

You were never honest to me

Now i'm gonna break your heart

Tear you to pieces

and

Rip you apart..

mark my word.

i don't show anymore sympathy for your innocent looks

One day i'll get you

one day.

Putrefaction

2010-03-15T02:47:00.000+08:00

I don't give a DAMN about anyone..

Fuck You if you think that i'm useless and your way better.

Lets see how it goes this year!

I'll make hell for you

[ Referring to someone who looks down on me ]

i . . . . . h o p e

I'm not running away,I just want to get the hell out of here!

2010-03-07T22:26:00.003+08:00

Last year i posted that i'm moving to KL for further studies

i don't remember if i did post about this

but what the heck.

I dint made it there..

I'm still stuck here..

with all the memories and past

Crap..

I fell apart

2010-03-07T22:12:00.002+08:00

I guess i'm not moving on after all

wonder why..

she just comes out of my mind every time

not to mean that she comes out

but

i think about her all the time

i wish i could live the past again

i wish i could..

i wish everything went well as friends instead

believe me.

i need to do a Russian Roulette on myself

but i don't have a Revolver

I'm just your typical everyday Loser!

(emo again?)

2010-02-26T15:17:00.001+08:00

What has happened cannot be undone no matter how we want it to be. You have been a Great Friend. Rest In Peace, You will be greatly miss

1990-2010

Jason Kiu

I'll remember the time we use to hang out in Form 1 and 2.

Those were the days buddy.

They Say

2010-02-22T12:26:00.001+08:00

I may look like i'm not moving on

but I am.

I'm adapting to my new found path

I learn not to be Emo

I learn not be Depressed

It sucks being that way

Believe me

I have 4 more days to the End of my work

and

I'm back to class!

I know I've said that i wanted to change myself to start doing my work but not by the last min all the time

i really think that i can do that

I mite be separated from my previous classmates and buddy's

it's a sign that's saying i should be more determine and confidence in what i do these days

My work

My relationships

My health

My behavior

My attitude of being Alone!

I want to change all those.

but remain as the same all Tim to everyone who had known me,as a friend i mean

It's time for me to follow my new path

and improved myself this year

I will

I don't care what people say and talk about me

Those bullshit are not True, and i got nothing in return if i Fight back

I walk the line, The line i choose

Im Sick

2010-02-19T21:49:00.001+08:00

Enough said..

title says it all

why bother writing?

just happy not going to work today.

hooray..

and Next week will be my final week at Sidewalk!

100th anniversary

2010-02-19T21:42:00.001+08:00

The History of Old Trafford.

19 Feb 1910 - 19 Feb 2010

100 years of Old Trafford.

Proud to be a Manchester United Fan!

Win,Lose or Draw

Doesn't matter,I'm a United Fan for Life!

GLORY GLORY MAN UTD!!

No roads left

2010-02-15T03:01:00.000+08:00

Standing alone with no direction

How did i fall so far behind?

Why am i searching for perfection?

Knowing it's something i wont find.

In my fears and flaw, I let myself down again,all because.....

I run.

Ever wonder what happen to me for this past years?

I know that i'm changing from bad to worst to miserable.

Over the past year since high school,

I've suddenly have changed to someone that i dint expect out of me

I'm an Alcoholic

Smoker

and

Bad Temper

What can i do to change that?

What?!!

My Friends said that I've been too quite.

i know that I'm always quite,

but what am i suppose to do?

I did my best, i tried till it hurt myself.

I'm just a typical lame guy i guess

I never did step up to do anything right

I never did gain Confidence at all

I'm just..

Nothing.

When did i lose my sense of purpose?

Can i regain whats lost inside?

Why does my pain look like my pride?

Why do i feel like i deserve this?

Deafening Voices

2010-02-05T12:00:00.001+08:00

"Can somebody please just explain to me

What happened to the way that we always said we'd be

Right now i don't know why i push through the pain that i got through

And i'm losing hope, tell me one reason not to."

Predict

2010-02-05T00:13:00.002+08:00

I knew it

i know that i wont last long at Sidewalk..

this could be my final month there.

reasons?

due to my results

n

performance

i really need to step up my gear to get a good results

jz receive my results yesterday.

and it was bad bad bad!

not that bad

but really bad

I gt a B+ for photography

C- for Comp. Graphic

the rest

Life drawing

History of art

Design studies

i got a freaking D

and my GPA is like 1.24 something

and i have to pay full semester fees due to my GPA!

FCUK!

i really regret for not pushing myself doing my work last sem.

i promise for a Change

and i will change it

i'll do every single thing i can do jz to get a Good good Results!

and nothing is goin to stop me.

i hope... =/

And I'm Back

2010-02-04T01:00:00.001+08:00

Where was i..

Oh ya..

Fallout 3,left 4 dead 2,Star wars,Bayonetta,Devil may cry,Wanted,Dark sector,Halo ODST,Halo 3,Prototype,The Saboteur,Wet,Prince of persia,Alone in the dark,Brutal legend,Bourne Conspiracy,Fuel,Pure,Condemned,Terminator,Dead Space n F.E.A.R!

Story lines, game ideas, design concept, sketches are all in my mind.

the only thing i'm hoping is that i wont fail any 1 of my freaking ass subject!

if i did.. well.. i guess i have to start all over.

now..

to work

My job at Sidewalk

was not bad at all

jz that its really really tired when there's lot of costumers.

the one thing i hated about costumers

that some of them are freaking ~~asshole~~ and a ~~bitch~~!

but in the end i'll make them pay more.. yes,u mess with me, i'll mess with ur bills and food!

i don't care if u don't have enough cash, never ever for ever never so ever be fucking rude.

with me.

Post Mortem

2010-02-03T15:03:00.000+08:00

1 hour to work

and i'm blogging.

1st i was so exited to work

now

well..i'm just playing game the whole time.

ha ha?

27 days to class

at least i can design more stuff due to a lot of imaginative ideas i got from games

Gears of War, Assassins Creed,Bioshock,Grid,Godfather,Resident Evil 5,Silent Hill:Homecoming,Mass Effect,Army of Two,Tekken 6,King of Fighters,Skate,GTA IV, Call Of Duty, Wolfvernstien, Darksiders and i'll continue more later on.

OFF TO WORK!

I had to tell the world

2010-01-24T22:20:00.002+08:00

I'll be working tomorrow!

finally..no more boredom.

i wanna work work work!

Waiter or Bartender.

i don't give a damn.

Hello 'Sidewalk!'

For Haiti

2010-01-24T22:18:00.002+08:00

http://www.musicforrelief.org/

To The Edge.

2010-01-20T01:29:00.001+08:00

I just cant get enough of Left 4 Dead 2 these days

it's like every week i had to go to Gizmo just to play it

altho i had the game in my Xbox360

but playing in Pc is still the best experience..

Holidays has been really crappy

went to find jobs on Monday

tried Memories , Sony , Copal Digital..

not much

but i'm hoping and really wanted to work at Sony at Boulavard

i really wanted to work

but at the same thing in my mind

i don't wanna work!

cause there's a Photography Workshop this Friday at Campus..

crap..

i want to go for that too.

i really really really MISS COLLEGE LIFE!!!!

i miss being lazy

i miss being Busy doing ASSignments

i miss hanging out with friends and all the great lecturers and staff!!

i felt ALIVE when i'm there.

but DEAD at home!

Class begins on March!

and now its like 20th of January?!!

how long do i have to wait!!!?

gaahhh!

and out of the blue

I miss someone so badly..

i cant believe i still think about her

but life must go on without her..

hoping for a new leap of change this year..

Was not

2010-01-18T01:29:00.000+08:00

I'm so freaking lazy to update these days.

no mood at all.

boredom really struck me well this new year.

crap.

enough of that..

i cant wait for interview tomorrow.

i need that freaking JOB

i need MONEY

like i said.

2010 will be different.

i'll make myself as bz as possible.

so what?

i don't care what others think about me

i am what i am

this is me

i don't give a fuck whoever you are

is either your Miss Popular,Or Mr Popular

well my ass you guys sucks!

people like you only think about fame!

talk shit about us while you dint even realize that your the shitty one's.

ok i had enough.

Lan Cau!

Counting

2010-01-05T22:41:00.000+08:00

1 month and 26 days left

to class

what the Fcuk am i going to do that long.

First of all, i would love to go to the Big Night Out at Singapore next month

i have money,passport,transportation,shelter..except for food

but i don't think my parents would be that crazy enough to let me go there alone

unless its KL.

sigh

how i wish to get out of this miserable life

maybe when i started my degree i can go

hopefully

at least to Lasalle College of Art in Singapore would just be good enough

if not

i'll just see what i can do

my holidays are fcuking bored

all i do

watching movie at MBO

went to hang out at town

alone

as always

no one even bother tho

at least i can enjoy the cold breezy night at Waterfront

since it's school time

none of those suckers and son of a bitch is there anymore

what a life eh?

Thoughts

2010-01-05T22:25:00.000+08:00

I'm kinda numb

It's so distorted

You left me here with

This DAMAGE that you caused

My tortured faces

Those fucked up places

In my memories

None of them I've lost

But

I haven't been here long enough to know

Every time I feel this I just LOSE control

Such a cancer on the face of everything that's beautiful

I Wish that this would just go

It's kinda sick

I feel so dirty

I'm kinda tragic

Kinda insecure

But i know

That i'm the only

One that can fix

Whatever wrong i'm sure

But

I feel so Alone

From all I've become

I'll take you down

I feel so down

I'm water while you drown

You're lifted while I'm down

I'm cancer in your womb

I'm the needle in your spoon

Just go

With all these fucking lies

All these fucking lies

Im not

2010-01-03T18:55:00.001+08:00

Why does everyday of my life

i have to go through this kind of shit?

just a little misunderstanding and joking around

they take it serious!

you wanna know the reasons why?

well

here it is.

your my friend, and you know who i am if i play around cause i was never serious at it

i respect your time with family and other friends

i don't bother when you say your not free at all

the thing is

all i wanted is a Friend to hang out with

now tell me..whats wrong with that?

i don't have any cool cousins or brother who brings me to club, or futsal or hagging out

just for your information

I've live my life ALONE for the past years!

ALONE!

Have you ever felt that loneliness,emptiness, that freaking hole is getting bigger and bigger every single day!

fcuk i even go out alone

watch movie alone

drink liquor by my own!

especially when i don't have that much friends to hang out with!

i'm not a cool guy

i gotta admit i'm just typical douche bag loser!

I live my life alone,alone and alone

just to have a Friend to hang out with

is just enough

maybe i don't deserve any friends

i don't think anyone knows how i feel

only God knows how suffering i am

an END to my life would just be good enough for me

and it'll make me

Happy.

A Brave New World

2010-01-03T18:22:00.000+08:00

I'm gonna think different this new year.

what happen before,i'll forget about it.

I need a fresh start

I need a new path

I believe i can make something different this year.

since i'm still gonna live in with the Problems i had last year

I'm gonna have to step up from now on

I don't care who you were before to me

i'll do all my best to dismiss you

i don't give a fuck anymore

i don't

when i was being the friendly type of person last year

all i got was a Backstab

Shitty Rumors

and all that fucking crap of yours

i don't give a Fuck ANYMORE!

this time..i swear to God

i wont be the same Tim you know.

i swear. I've suffered enough for one whole FUCKING year of 2009!

Finale

2010-01-02T18:40:00.000+08:00

After more than 10 templates of gay and liberal layouts.

i finally got one.

I'm tired of doing it over and over and over again..

makes me feel so crappy!

I need a fresh air.

cau.

to be continue.

2010-01-02T01:36:00.002+08:00

blog under construction.

Happy New Year Peeps!

fcuk 2009,hello 2010.

Flash back..

2009-12-27T23:44:00.000+08:00

The old times

where was it..

why the fcuk am i so emo these days.

today i made a big impact to them by serving after months of absents.

i can say,were they that shock to see me back?

well..i hope not, i wont be returning to that place.

anymore.

but i still pray and believe in God

and i got no hard feelings towards you all anymore.

whats the point for me to hate you all.

i got nothing in return but a smack in the face

next year.

hoping for a new start for myself

the best time of my life this year

only once in this year.. i was happy

the rest

it was hell

2009 is the most worst year of my entire life

2010

i hope your better than this year.

Those were the days

2009-12-19T23:38:00.003+08:00

Al tho i cant believe that i went to a 4-12year old kids Christmas Celebration that afternoon

i had no regrets going there

brings back the old times

those memory

child hood memories

i use to celebrate Christmas with joy and happy

now.

it's just too different

i used to remember i had a great time in Sunday School with friends of mine

Cyril, Danson, Aldrich and John(i think he was there)

yea.

those were the times eh

now were all separate.

It felt very different....

little sad tho..

i miss those days...

Merry Christmas Everyone.

Stand in the rain

2009-12-16T20:40:00.002+08:00

When i never though it would happen

i'll never really though that it would really happen in the early episodes..

here's a picture of Ellen and Jo Harvelle

Gonna miss them both

now i have to wait till January 21st for the 11th episode..

crap.

i hate breaks..

and i'm still sad to see Jo died...

=[

How I Wish

2009-12-11T18:22:00.000+08:00

Hopefully Next Year there will be a Silent Hill: Shattered Memories in xbox360

i am so damn desperate to play that game.

played the 1st ever silent hill in ps1

and it was freaking cool and.. scary.

only for wii,psp and ps2?

crap..

why cant they have such a good game in my console..

i just wanna relive the nightmare.

Its So

2009-12-08T23:29:00.000+08:00

I think my Blog look so FREAKING

GAY!

thats all for now.

Arrivederci

The Obsession

2009-12-06T15:58:00.001+08:00

Staying in front of my TV for 10 hours non stop

i just cant stop playing Dragon Age Origins!!

Its one of those game that kept you going and going and going!

I've played to Much game these day until it makes me forget what day it is today

For Christ Sake i dint know today was sunday.

sleep late due to birthday bash at Piccadilly's

wake up early by my mom, i dint know why..

to find out that i was going church!

crap.

i need to stop for awhile.

i hope.

i'm playing one of the most anticipated, stunning ,expansive game of the YEAR!!

great...now i'm tempting myself to play again..

off to play games

vegil la macchinetta su di voi

(may the maker watch over you)

oh ya..not to mention. i'm obsess in learning Italiano now

dont ask why

arrivederci

(goodbye)

The Only Exception

2009-12-03T17:07:00.000+08:00

its been long i dint update..

my blog looks so

lame

oh well.

my holidays weren't bad at all.

went to Singapore and Johor.

I miss Singapore badly..

everything there is so freaking cool and CHEAP!!

its a dream world for me there.

but i dont have the cash tho..

maybe i would consider studying there. hah!

nw the holidays are bored.

im just staying at home playing my Xbox360 all day.

my hand is really weak now.

i slept late and play games all nite.

im considering to take a part time job starting next week.

cause i have no mood to celebrate Christmast due to sum F******S

28 days to go to New Year.

i cant wait for that only..

thats all for now on the lame blogs.org

off to play my games!!

4 months and counting

2009-11-21T01:40:00.001+08:00

HOLIDAYS begin TODAYYY!!

submit all my work in the dying minutes. receive lecture from the lecturers due to poor performance

crap..

i have a feeling that i'll fail maybe 1 or 2 subjects..

im begging to have a C or a C-

now off to sleep

and Hello SINGAPORE!!!!

i hope i can get my early Christmas present there!!

~i hope~

and yea..

i have a 4 months holidays..

the title says so.

believe me.

i don't even believe it

0311 a m

2009-11-19T03:11:00.000+08:00

still doin my work

assignments is killing me...

wont be sleeping tonite...

all nite work work work work work

i need to change my habit of doing the work last min..

wait

that will never change

its in our blood to do it in the last dying minutes....

back to work

Counting Down

2009-11-17T12:54:00.000+08:00

4 more days

and i'm free

off to Singapore!!

4 months of holidays get me thinking that i should really spent my time looking for part-time job

few assignments left

and i'll SCREAMMMM

but sadly

my move to KL next year has been turned down

~ crap ~

but the good thing is

i'll work while studying

more photography events next year

a new year for myself

time to change myself

this year has been to worst,bad,lame and heart-breaking time of my life

i hope my Christmas will be good.

cause i'm already in the mood!! =]

Im Not Capable Of Anything

2009-11-10T21:47:00.001+08:00

What i believe in

i felt empty

useless

I believe in nothing not the end and not the start

I believe in nothing not the earth and not the stars

I believe in nothing not the day or not the dark

I believe in nothing but the beating of our hearts

I believe in nothing 100 suns until we part

I believe in nothing not in sin but not in God

I believe in nothing not in Peace and not in War

I believe in nothing but the truth in who we are.....

but i don't believe in Myself.

The Dead Week

2009-11-08T15:58:00.000+08:00

My final 2 weeks of semester 3

and i'm freaking dead!

I haven't completed all my assignments yet

and presentations is this coming Tuesday & Wednesday

Hoping for some miracle!!

How i wish my assignments can do its own job.

all the time.

What..

2009-11-03T22:19:00.000+08:00

Why the fuck am i still blogging??!

go do your work asshole!

Cubism

2009-11-03T21:19:00.003+08:00

3 weeks to Holiday

i cannot focused on that too much now

too many work to do

assigments

how i wish i could just woke up and everything is done

i dont want to ended up dead next semester

hell no!!

Record Breaking not

2009-11-03T00:27:00.003+08:00

For the 1st time in 1 and a Half year

I slept at 8pm.

for real.

Sleepyhead

2009-10-31T00:50:00.003+08:00

Its 12.51 am

and i just ate my breakfast,lunch and dinner

and i cant even sleep

again

why cant i sleep?

i need to wake up early in the morning

just to find the perfect spot for my photography ASSignments

and

to make it worst

i have a photo outing at 3pm around town

when in the hell i'm going to get some GOOD sleep!

i need to be patience...

4 more weeks

and hello to Singapore!

Dont Look Back In Anger

2009-10-25T21:27:00.003+08:00

Maybe i should just be quiet

ignoring them

they'll ignore me

should be a good idea

i come and go

and i wont bother about them anymore

whats the point of getting angry at them

i don't get anything in return

i'll relax

chill

quite like i was before

do the job

mind my own business

Amen!

It Wont

2009-10-23T01:42:00.003+08:00

this scars of mine wont fade away

when will it ever fade

its making me sick

sometimes tears say all there is to say

On the road

2009-10-18T00:21:00.002+08:00

IM CURRENTLY OBSESS WITH THIS SONG!!

The original soundtrack of Kamen Rider Decade!

and you think i cant sing this song?

hah!

Think again!

She's so

2009-10-17T01:31:00.003+08:00

After Watching

and Obsess

On Kamen Rider Decade!

I just cant stop watching

Natsumi

Alson Know as Kanna Mori

She's So

Adorable!

i cant believe i said that

Oh well..

Better save my energy for tomorrow's Football Match Against the Army!

HENSHIN!

Where Was The Old Time?

2009-10-16T00:13:00.003+08:00

I miss her

I do

Why did this happen to us?

Sights

I sound so freaking EMO!

Why cant i just not be EMO for a Week!

A week!

Its all i'm asking

I want to be HAPPY always!

Why cant you just stop msgging me telling me its wrong msg!?

Everytime you msg me, id think about you

Hell, I think about you everyday!

I hope my move to KL will be approve..

I need a time on my own.

Thats What HE Says

2009-10-14T22:18:00.004+08:00

I use to say

Fuck You and Go to hell

Every time when people tries to ask for forgiveness from me

I know i could be a mean and sarcastic bastard

but

I need to change those

The reason why i say those cause i get pissed off really fast

I'm a Hot Headed Tempered Person!

Thats me

I dont need to be that person anymore

God Says

If people make fun of You

Laugh at them

If they insult you and bully you

Laugh harder

Cause there's no point of fighting back

What do you get in return?

Nothing

If i hate that person so hard cause that person ruin my life

I still have nothing in return

except hurting myself thinking about the problems

to anyone that i have hurt before

forgive me or not

i can accept it

Hate me or not

I wont mind

Pure

2009-10-13T16:59:00.003+08:00

I'm Alive

and

I'm Dreaming Out Loud

Such a Boring Day

...................

I scored 3% out of 60% in my History Of Art mid-term exam??!!!

Surprise

I'm Not

Cause it was freakingg Hard!

Try to learn those

You'll eventually know how i feel..

Time to Sleep! Sleep! Sleep!

Wake me till the morning after!

This is it

2009-10-13T15:34:00.002+08:00

Its been 3 months pass by

but still

Micheal Jackson's

Songs

and

Dance move

Still plays in my head

This is his story

his final rehearsal

before his tragic death

that shock the World

This is it

The Hardest Choice

2009-10-13T00:18:00.006+08:00

Decisions decisions decisions

its hard for me these days

i have too many choices

or not

Animator Designer

Magazine

and

Photography

yes

Photography

recently

I've been very active in the Photography Field

Any events

I'll join in no matter what

I dont know what makes

me so exited about it

i do realizes that my skills are improving abit

maybe i'll ended like this dude here

oh well.

wherever it takes me

its worth it

and i dont know why did have the time to blog alot now

Back to WORK!!

nvm.

i'll just sleep

Good God Y'all

2009-10-12T23:44:00.004+08:00

Sometimes i wonder

why do i miss her?

after what happen few weeks ago.

its so..weird

and

....

nevermind.

i wish we can turn back time,

and back like it was before

i know my mistakes

and i'll learn from it

maybe

Single is the best way for me

maybe

God has better plans ahead for me

maybe

it's too early for me

not the time

i cut my hair short

to start a new leaf

and

i'll focus more on my works

it' all i can do

at church

its a different story now

my name was not on the duty roster for 1 month!

WOW!

to tell you,

i'm not happy

it's like they dont wan me around after they blame me for nothing!

what for the sake of the information!

im not a freaking spy you suckers!

i dont mind if you all blame and accused me

i have the patience for that

but

not letting me serve for God!?

that bullshit i tell you

it really is!

i'll stay away from you suckers from now on

i would take the blame and all

but you'll never stop me from serving God!!

Do i?

2009-10-12T23:39:00.003+08:00

After cutting my hair short yesterday

everyone was in shock!

i wonder why....

they called me the Good boy!

Crap...no thx.

I hate that.

I've been label that ever since i told them i go to church every sunday morning

of course i am

but at night

i'm different.

>=]

hahahaha.

my head feels so aerodynamic

so light

i think i can run faster now.

beware futsal opponents !

I dont want it to end

2009-10-10T00:29:00.004+08:00

I'm trying to make myself comfortable now

but everyday

i just get very tired all the time

Monday to Friday

Non stop class

At night Futsal with the College Team

Twice to three times a week

And theres the event that been happening every month

Gigs

Party

Celebration

and all that

I dint even get enough sleep!

Its crap

but i like it

I'm being very active and the end of the year

and i'm enjoying it every last moment of it

My college

Makes my day everyday

I don't want to leave Limkokwing Borneo just yet

I want to belive

2009-10-09T00:25:00.003+08:00

2 days ago

Newspaper saying that the Indonesia's Vigilante People's Democratic Defence

i'll make it short.."Flag"

Will be invading my hometown on the 8th

Today they sent out a warning saying their coming

I can see why my neighborhood is sooooo damn quiet

but is it true?

that they can stand bullets and sharp objects?

i got nothing against Indonesians

My friends are from there, and i totally respect them

and if they did attack, i mean...invade

go for those who deserve it

Like those idiotic politics

now, im not allowed to leave the house.

thanks alot!

but there was no invasion

nothing

i hope

but something tells me

.....

i have a feeling that they are going to invade

not today

not friday

but this saturday

why?

cause the VIP's will be there

crowds are there

everyone is at the Padang Merdeka..

and im one of them.

well at least im not going there alone just to see those crappy prime ministers

my whole college is doing a parade all the way from my college to the field

by walking!

it sounds fun

but the threat doesn't.

i really hope that nothing bad will happen

or else

you'll be seeing me in the front page on the Sunday Post with my College Flag and my Camera with me

Im not moving

2009-10-07T23:56:00.005+08:00

If one day you wake up

and find that your missing me

and your Heart starts to wonder where on this earth i could be

so i'm not moving

When The Wind Blows

2009-09-29T13:53:00.005+08:00

You left me for good

Back to reality for me

i just need to forget about You

Did i regret? no..i had no regrets to be with you

I'll learn from my mistakes

I cant wait for the year 2009 to end

and hello to 2010

That will be my time to Change

Start a new Journey for myself

and i'm Eager to leave this place

I'll miss my hometown

and i'll miss you the most

and i'm really am thank full to have my friends who really support me the whole time

Cheers! =]

The Love of the Killing Games!

2009-09-17T17:36:00.004+08:00

This is my 100th post

What will the world be without Violence?

I dont wish for those

But if its a Game

I wouldn't mind at all

The Game Prototype really makes me wanna play the game over and over again

why?

Cause its more like GTA and Assasins Creed.

You can Kill anyone

Be anyone

Start a chaos

and the best of all you can go anywhere in the Big city of New York and do anything!

This game really KICK ASS every single action game i've ever played in my entire life!

If there's anyone wanted a real Game,this is the Game that everyone

and this Game is gonna be part of my Assingments for my Magazine Spread!

Somewhere,Some Place Better

2009-09-16T16:16:00.004+08:00

Its my 3rd Sem in Lkw.

Time flies by so fast

I dint even realise that im in college

im 19 means im getting old

driving

and all that

But to think about it.

I wanted to be in Lkw till im Degree

But my mind

Changes Everyting

I wanted to go to my dream College

Yeah,its not Limkokwing(sorry)

Its Arts Center College Of Design in Pasadena,California

It would be great if i had a chance to study there

and i would love to take my degree course there

hope they have Masters of Design

that would make me interested in my Course even more

BUT

there's always a but

I dont felt like leaving yet

Not the time!

I love my Friends here

My Family

My Cat & Dog

My Home

The Food

My Girlfriend especially

I would never leave those

Without all of those

I wont be here writing this blog

and tell everyone my stories in here..

Slowly i adapted

2009-09-14T00:21:00.004+08:00

Its been weeks i dint update.

Been through hell for awhile

Everything turn out really bad

except one

My relationship

Now the only thing im worried is.

Some of the things thats been happening.

Im scared that it'll affect our realtionship.

Of course, were happy to be together

but there are things that doesn't seem right

From what i've know

oh nvm..

i dont feel like telling it here yet.

but i will..

the only i could say is

izit wrong for me and her to be together?

and what the fuck have i ever done to you before!? or your relatioship?!

thats all..

only God knows what the heck happen to you..

I treat you like a Good Friend,and this is what i get in return..

YOU FUCKING HYPROCRITE!

One Way

2009-08-31T18:59:00.003+08:00

Million Miles

For my Creator

You gave me life

Now Show Me How To Live!

To be myself is all can do

I want to Move on

Forgetting about my past

Cause i hate it..

Show me a way..

Will you?