Monday Blues

For the first time since my Holiday

It was the most relaxing Monday Morning ever

I slept well

I dint have to do any work

Like driving and all that.

Just relaxing

Then hopefully tonight will get to hang out with Friends that i hadn't met since Holiday started

Things just couldn't get any better 

From Yesterday

I wanna bury my head in the sands 

I wanna forget about all the shit and fucked up things that had ever happen to me

I just want to be Free 

From everything

I want to start a New Life

For myself

Its that a Bad Thing to ask?

If it isn't

Then why is it so hard just to Reach it?

That Picture

When Dreams can eventually makes me desperate for that Reality

Its been awhile now since i started to lose my mind.

I don't really care what it takes to reach that dreams of mine

I will find a way

and 

I will never Give up..

Oceanside,California.

wait for me.

Misguided

Seems that chasing my impossible dreams

seems pretty Impossible after all

that burden i felt.

i really wanna leave this Hell

i hated it so much

i hated the situation more every time as i woke in the morning thinking that i could not reach my dreams

I cant stop thinking about it everyday..

It echo me in circles 24-7

i couldn't sleep properly

i couldn't eat

i couldn't think

i couldn't play games

i cant even think properly

i really do wish that i can make a wish through airplanes

i wanted start a new life for myself

but that pain, is just a simple compromise.

i couldn't care less about myself now

i felt like Giving Up for real.

in everything

Disturbed

Im disturbed enough already

so

Stop bothering me! 

My mind is going insanely crazy like shit! 

Holidays

Its Holiday, and i'm bored to D e a t h ! !

I was suppose to be happy but i wasn't..

Sleepless night, do some routine work, alone at home staring at the wall

for Christ sake even the walls in my room are sick of me staring at them!!

My cat & dog ignores me, sleep & eat thats all they do..

I dint even went to Rainforest! 

i know it'll be bored and expensive, unlike last time which is more nicer! 

no offence, im just moody now..

~sigh~

next semester im sem 5!

hope to relive my Dreams from there,

so that i can get the FUCK OUT OF HERE!

Life sucks?

Is it? 

I just need to find that simple answer on whats the meaning and the purpose of my life..

and then i wont say it SUCKS!!

Nick Vujicic

He inspires me starting this month!

Dont give up, Keep chasing your dreams!

he has No Arms No Legs.. yet he says No worries 

Thank you Nick! 

2011..a year before the end of the world...

Will i reach my dreams next year? 

can i do it?

i know i can.

when i'm push to my limits.. i am capable of doing anything..

i just have to trust on myself..

i just need a little Faith for myself

i'll do whatever it takes to reach that impossible dreams of mine..  

Who am i?

I'm a Loser

yay!

so go fuck yourself you people who thinks shit about me! 

i have the right to do what i want!

it's my freaking LIFE!

not YOURS!! 

bitches!!

Jam Mode

What if i wanted to break

Laugh it all off in your face

What would you do?

What if i fell to the floor

Couldn't take this anymore

What would you do, do, do?

Come Break me down

Bury me bury me

i am finished with you

[ performing the kill of 30 seconds to mars ]

Jamming

letting the real me out..

and forget those shitty things that happen to me before.

Fear The Future

Another Horror Survivor Game

That keeps me awake!

Love the details and Story lines.

Nice game play too

but still i cant wait for Alan Wake

so Fear The Future..

I can sleep Happy Now

2 - 1 is all Utd need..

Thank You Park JeSung!

and of course Rafa, who hated his own players..

whoops.

hah..

Glory Glory Man Utd!

8 games to go

Who will win?

it's 1-1 now. in 23rd min.. 

God i hope Man Utd Win...

Why?

ever wonder why, ask yourself first.

your still in ME n my MIND

Discombabulate

Seems to be that i'm improving my life

REASONS:

I've done my work on time

I just do the Job and Go

Ignoring the past 

but,i still felt there's something missing

..i just cant keep my mind off of it..

Everyone tells me I've changed but the truth is, I've just stop living my life their way.

This came from my heart that you've hurt

Why me?

Why i was the unlucky guy for you?

You were never honest to me

Now i'm gonna break your heart

Tear you to pieces

and 

Rip you apart..

mark my word.

i don't show anymore sympathy for your innocent looks

One day i'll get you

one day.  

Putrefaction

I don't give a DAMN about anyone.. 

Fuck You if you think that i'm useless and your way better.

Lets see how it goes this year! 

I'll make hell for you

[ Referring to someone who looks down on me ] 

i . . . . . h o p e

I'm not running away,I just want to get the hell out of here!

Last year i posted that i'm moving to KL for further studies

i don't remember if i did post about this

but what the heck.

I dint made it there..

I'm still stuck here..

with all the memories and past

Crap..

I fell apart

I guess i'm not moving on after all

wonder why..

she just comes out of my mind every time 

not to mean that she comes out

but

i think about her all the time

i wish i could live the past again

i wish i could..

i wish everything went well as friends instead

believe me.

i need to do a Russian Roulette on myself

but i don't have a Revolver

I'm just your typical everyday Loser!

(emo again?)