What has happened cannot be undone no matter how we want it to be. You have been a Great Friend. Rest In Peace, You will be greatly miss 

1990-2010

Jason Kiu

I'll remember the time we use to hang out in Form 1 and 2.

Those were the days buddy.

They Say

I may look like i'm not moving on

but I am.

I'm adapting to my new found path

I learn not to be Emo

I learn not be Depressed

It sucks being that way

Believe me

I have 4 more days to the End of my work 

and 

I'm back to class!

I know I've said that i wanted to change myself to start doing my work but not by the last min all the time

 i really think that i can do that

I mite be separated from my previous classmates and buddy's

it's a sign that's saying i should be more determine and confidence in what i do these days

My work

My relationships

My health 

My behavior

My attitude of being Alone!

I want to change all those.

but remain as the same all Tim to everyone who had known me,as a friend i mean

It's time for me to follow my new path 

and improved myself this year

I will

I don't care what people say and talk about me

Those bullshit are not True, and i got nothing in return if i Fight back

I walk the line, The line i choose

Im Sick

Enough said..

title says it all

why bother writing? 

just happy not going to work today.

hooray.. 

and Next week will be my final week at Sidewalk!

100th anniversary

The History of Old Trafford.

19 Feb 1910 - 19 Feb 2010

100 years of Old Trafford.

Proud to be a Manchester United Fan!

Win,Lose or Draw

Doesn't matter,I'm a United Fan for Life!

GLORY GLORY MAN UTD!!

No roads left

Standing alone with no direction

How did i fall so far behind?

Why am i searching for perfection?

Knowing it's something i wont find.

In my fears and flaw, I let myself down again,all because.....

I run.

Ever wonder what happen to me for this past years?

I know that i'm changing from bad to worst to miserable.

Over the past year since high school,

I've suddenly have changed to someone that i dint expect out of me

I'm an Alcoholic

Smoker

and 

Bad Temper

What can i do to change that?

What?!!

My Friends said that I've been too quite.

i know that I'm always quite,

but what am i suppose to do?

I did my best, i tried till it hurt myself.

I'm just a typical lame guy i guess

I never did step up to do anything right

I never did gain Confidence at all

I'm just..

Nothing.

When did i lose my sense of purpose? 

Can i regain whats lost inside?

Why does my pain look like my pride?

Why do i feel like i deserve this?

Deafening Voices

"Can somebody please just explain to me

What happened to the way that we always said we'd be

Right now i don't know why i push through the pain that i got through

And i'm losing hope, tell me one reason not to."

Predict

I knew it

i know that i wont last long at Sidewalk..

this could be my final month there.

reasons?

due to my results

n

performance

i really need to step up my gear to get a good results

jz receive my results yesterday.

and it was bad bad bad!

not that bad

but really bad

I gt a B+ for photography

C- for Comp. Graphic

the rest

Life drawing

History of art

Design studies

i got a freaking D

and my GPA is like 1.24 something

and i have to pay full semester fees due to my GPA!

FCUK!

i really regret for not pushing myself doing my work last sem.

i promise for a Change

and i will change it

i'll do every single thing i can do jz to get a Good good Results!

and nothing is goin to stop me.

i hope... =/

And I'm Back

Where was i..

Oh ya..

Fallout 3,left 4 dead 2,Star wars,Bayonetta,Devil may cry,Wanted,Dark sector,Halo ODST,Halo 3,Prototype,The Saboteur,Wet,Prince of persia,Alone in the dark,Brutal legend,Bourne Conspiracy,Fuel,Pure,Condemned,Terminator,Dead Space n F.E.A.R!

Story lines, game ideas, design concept, sketches are all in my mind.

the only thing i'm hoping is that i wont fail any 1 of my freaking ass subject!

if i did.. well.. i guess i have to start all over.

now..

to work

My job at Sidewalk

was not bad at all

jz that its really really tired when there's lot of costumers.

the one thing i hated about costumers

that some of them are freaking asshole and a bitch!

but in the end i'll make them pay more.. yes,u mess with me, i'll mess with ur bills and food!

i don't care if u don't have enough cash, never ever for ever never so ever be fucking rude.

with me.

Post Mortem

1 hour to work

and i'm blogging.

1st i was so exited to work

now

well..i'm just playing game the whole time.

ha ha?

27 days to class

at least i can design more stuff due to a lot of imaginative ideas i got from games

Gears of War, Assassins Creed,Bioshock,Grid,Godfather,Resident Evil 5,Silent Hill:Homecoming,Mass Effect,Army of Two,Tekken 6,King of Fighters,Skate,GTA IV, Call Of Duty, Wolfvernstien, Darksiders and i'll continue more later on.

OFF TO WORK!

I had to tell the world

I'll be working tomorrow!

finally..no more boredom.

i wanna work work work!

Waiter or Bartender.

i don't give a damn.

Hello 'Sidewalk!'

For Haiti

http://www.musicforrelief.org/

To The Edge.

I just cant get enough of Left 4 Dead 2 these days

it's like every week i had to go to Gizmo just to play it

altho i had the game in my Xbox360

but playing in Pc is still the best experience..

Holidays has been really crappy

went to find jobs on Monday

tried Memories , Sony , Copal Digital..

not much

but i'm hoping and really wanted to work at Sony at Boulavard

i really wanted to work

but at the same thing in my mind

i don't wanna work!

cause there's a Photography Workshop this Friday at Campus..

crap..

i want to go for that too.

i really really really MISS COLLEGE LIFE!!!!

i miss being lazy

i miss being Busy doing ASSignments

i miss hanging out with friends and all the great lecturers and staff!!

i felt ALIVE when i'm there.

but DEAD at home!

Class begins on March!

and now its like 20th of January?!!

how long do i have to wait!!!?

gaahhh!

and out of the blue

I miss someone so badly..

i cant believe i still think about her

but life must go on without her..

hoping for a new leap of change this year..

Was not

I'm so freaking lazy to update these days.

no mood at all.

boredom really struck me well this new year.

crap.

enough of that..

i cant wait for interview tomorrow.

i need that freaking JOB

i need MONEY

like i said.

2010 will be different.

i'll make myself as bz as possible.

so what?

i don't care what others think about me

i am what i am

this is me

i don't give a fuck whoever you are

is either your Miss Popular,Or Mr Popular

well my ass you guys sucks!

people like you only think about fame!

talk shit about us while you dint even realize that your the shitty one's.

ok i had enough.

Lan Cau!

Counting

1 month and 26 days left

to class

what the Fcuk am i going to do that long.

First of all, i would love to go to the Big Night Out at Singapore next month

i have money,passport,transportation,shelter..except for food

but i don't think my parents would be that crazy enough to let me go there alone

unless its KL.

sigh

how i wish to get out of this miserable life

maybe when i started my degree i can go

hopefully

at least to Lasalle College of Art in Singapore would just be good enough

if not

i'll just see what i can do

my holidays are fcuking bored

all i do

watching movie at MBO

went to hang out at town

alone

as always

no one even bother tho

at least i can enjoy the cold breezy night at Waterfront

since it's school time

none of those suckers and son of a bitch is there anymore

what a life eh?

Thoughts

I'm kinda numb

It's so distorted 

You left me here with

This DAMAGE that you caused

My tortured faces

Those fucked up places

In my memories

None of them I've lost

But

I haven't been here long enough to know

Every time I feel this I just LOSE control

Such a cancer on the face of everything that's beautiful

I Wish that this would just go

It's kinda sick

I feel so dirty

I'm kinda tragic

Kinda insecure

But i know

That i'm the only

One that can fix

Whatever wrong i'm sure

But

I feel so Alone

From all I've become 

I'll take you down

I feel so down

I'm water while you drown

You're lifted while I'm down

I'm cancer in your womb

I'm the needle in your spoon

Just go

With all these fucking lies

All these fucking lies

Im not

Why does everyday of my life

i have to go through this kind of shit?

just a little misunderstanding and joking around

they take it serious!

you wanna know the reasons why?

well

here it is.

your my friend, and you know who i am if i play around cause i was never serious at it

i respect your time with family and other friends

i don't bother when you say your not free at all

the thing is

all i wanted is a Friend to hang out with

now tell me..whats wrong with that?

i don't have any cool cousins or brother who brings me to club, or futsal or hagging out

just for your information

I've live my life ALONE for the past years!

ALONE!

Have you ever felt that loneliness,emptiness, that freaking hole is getting bigger and bigger every single day!

fcuk i even go out alone

watch movie alone

drink liquor by my own!

especially when i don't have that much friends to hang out with!

i'm not a cool guy

i gotta admit i'm just typical douche bag loser!

I live my life alone,alone and alone

just to have a Friend to hang out with

is just enough

maybe i don't deserve any friends

i don't think anyone knows how i feel

only God knows how suffering i am

an END to my life would just be good enough for me

and it'll make me

Happy.

A Brave New World

I'm gonna think different this new year.

what  happen before,i'll forget about it.

I need a fresh start

I need a new path

I believe i can make something different this year.

since i'm still gonna live in with the Problems i had last year

I'm gonna have to step up from now on

I don't care who you were before to me

i'll do all my best to dismiss you

i don't give a fuck anymore

i don't

when i was being the friendly type of person last year

all i got was a Backstab

Shitty Rumors

and all that fucking crap of yours

i don't give a Fuck ANYMORE!

this time..i swear to God

  i wont be the same Tim you know.

i swear. I've suffered enough for one whole FUCKING year of 2009!

Finale

After more than 10 templates of gay and liberal layouts.

i finally got one.

I'm tired of doing it over and over and over again..

makes me feel so crappy!

I need a fresh air.

cau.

to be continue.

blog under construction.

Happy New Year Peeps!

fcuk 2009,hello 2010.

Flash back..

The old times

where was it..

why the fcuk am i so emo these days.

today i made a big impact to them by serving after months of absents.

i can say,were they that shock to see me back?

well..i hope not, i wont be returning to that place.

anymore.

but i still pray and believe in God

and i got no hard feelings towards you all anymore.

whats the point for me to hate you all.

i got nothing in return but a smack in the face

next year.

hoping for a new start for myself

..

the best time of my life this year

only once in this year.. i was happy

the rest

it was hell

2009 is the most worst year of my entire life

2010

i hope your better than this year.