I felt pathetic

Seems like everything is not alrite at all..

I tried my best to smile

Still you seem pissed

Fine.

If this is how it goes..

Id prefer seperate ways.

You dont know how does it feels to be me

To live this life of mine.

Sure it takes few seconds to reply..

BUT!

At times i CANT! Alrite!

I dont like being mad..especially at you..

Never. I was never mad at you for what you've been doing and all..

This use to happen before, but why now?

Why not few months ago?

Why does it have to be now!?

I felt the burden, heck i even felt so emo!

Everyday i kept thinking about it,

even when i woke up, its the first thing that came out my mind..

I cant sleep at times, and i dint even eat.

My class already started, more and more Assignment is coming up

Plus i mite be working soon.

There's to much stuff i need to think and i cant even think normally..

I felt like breaking down cause you dont seem to understand me..

Yes i tried to msg you, but when you reply saying ''Who's this?''

Makes me think that i dont even know you already.

And im giving up hopes on you.

I never wanted this to happen.

You know who you are.

Crow Zero II

Finally i've watch Crow Zero II!!

Takashi Miike greatest movie adaptation from the japanese manga continues,

this time the movie is set 8 months after the first movie where Genji finally beat Serizawa

As for part II, they're going against Housen. Their fierce rival.

I dont need to tell the synopsis here..better go watch it yourself. I wont spoil it here

This is one of the best Movie i've ever watch.

Tamao Serizawa and Takaya Genji

Genji against the leader of Housen. Narumi Taiga

Beating your heart

I know..
I screwed up...
Im sorry
I know sorry is just word
and it wont change a thing
the way you think about me and all
I Messaged you.
You never replied back.

So..

I understand.
You deserve to be mad at me.

Things i adore...

A picture of London, looks more like Russia to me. But still, its pretty nice view

Some simple random photography.

Here are some arts that i really like..some of this really inspired me to do my work!

This is heaven and hell


I like this picture because of its background and its surrounding..and the way the person edit the picture..not because she's nude!


An explosion of abstract...

I love arts..its like part of me now..
my work may not be as good as the one that i posted..but i know i can improve myself to do better.

Like a drop of blood

Its been weeks i dint update..
i got nothing to blog about except complains...

just got my results this week.
surprisingly
i pass all my 7 freaking subjects!
except i gt a D for my life drawing which i really screw up...
at least i made it to sem 3.

class starts next week, and i cant wait.
im bored
i sleep too much
i even get pissed too much during the holidays..

so i hoped that everything changes next week..
and it will be my last semester here in Kuching..

yes.

Im moving to Cyberjaya next year..

Confuse, happy and sad at the same time..i don't even know how do i feel when i heard the news

I was and always will be

Once i was clueless and pathetic
sitting in front tv
playing video games
getting fat
been cursed by people
and all that shit

I was a Loser!

always and always will be..

when people starts talk shit about me...
without them even knowing that i knew they were talking shit about me..
id keep quiet
cause there's nothing i could do..
even if there is, it'll be worst.
once I've been left out by own best friends and buddy's
i lose hope...
once my love life turn into miserable
i should not be forgive by the person that id tried to love and be with

i deserve to be hated
i deserve to be a Loser
i don't deserve any friends no matter how many fucking times I've said to people that their my best friends!
i dont deserve to be with anybody cause im just another fucking loser who doesn't even know to make a move or to love the person!
i dont deserve anything
i dont.

i wish i could been given a chance
to escape from this pathetic life of mine
away from everybody...

when they ask me to pray
id pray
but i know that this is my life
and it'll never change..
never..

so if there is anybody who hates me
who thinks im a pathetic
loser
asshole
son of a bitch
said that i talk shit bout them when im not
pin point at me for no fucking reason!
said that i dont deserve a friend
and all of those you could think about

well your welcome to say so..

cause i dont deserve any fucking things!!! or anybody!!!
a loser like me wasn't suppose to be here!!
what is the purpose of me being on this fucking planet called Earth!

i guess people just doesn't know how does it fell to be in my shoes..
or to live this life, this pathetic life of mine..

Trave-ling

Will be travelling soon..
Cant wait for friday..
Cant wait for the Manchester United match
Im over exited.

i cant sleep
i cant think well
hell, i cant even eat!

finally a holiday trip with all my buddies..
except for aldrich who just came back..heh..
sorry man..

Just a phase

Results will be out soon..

and im freaking scared

to

FAIL!!

I dont want to repeat

I dont want to study the same thing over and over

I dont wanna be left out

I hope everything will go the way i hope it would..

at least a C in the subjects that im really weak at..

God..help me..

24-7

It's a boring week...
just play futsal
played left 4 dead...again
sleep
eat
Tv

what else....

oh ya..

Cyril's farewell dinner at his house.
i know is a sad day for him..
leaving tomorrow to KL
Wish you all the luck Dude..

Next week..i'll be going to KL too!!
I'll get to watch Manchester United!
Altho my ticket is some sucky sit place..as long i get to see my Favorite team in action against Malaysia.
Cant wait to meet Edwin Van Der Sar, Evra, Vidic, Giggs, Scholes, Ji sung Park, Rooney, Tosic and Micheal Owen!! Yes..Owen..im exited to see the Former Liverpool Legend playing for their own Rivals!! Cant wait to see the Liverpool's fans reaction!!

Altho its a boring holiday..at least i get to sleep 24-7... =)

A tribute to a LEGEND!

1958-2009

Michael Jackson

The inspiring,the entertainer and the King Of Pop
passed away at 2.20pm at UCLA Medical Center

he inspired me in music.
the music
the dance
it was always entertaining..
i grew up listening to his songs

altho im a guy who listen to rock songs.
but his songs are different than any other pop stars..

no one will ever forget his famous Moon Walk
and some of my favorite songs
You Are Not Alone
You Rock My World
Thriller
&
My most favorite
Smooth Criminal!

its too bad that he passed away at an early age(50 years old)...i was shock to hear the news, eventho its a short life for him but his achievement was incredible.it was said that he was working for a comeback show, but sadly..we wont get to see the Greatest Entertainer of all time

R.I.P Michael Jackson

I will always remember your songs and the entertainment that you gave

at the 1995 MTV VMA'S. Micheal was join by Slash for a medly o"Billy Jean" ''Beat It'' "Dont Stop Till You Get Enough'' and ''Black and White"

The First Week Of Silence-week 1

week 1...

its holiday,im happy. for now. i know its gonna be bored for this 2 months. but i can stand it. i know i can.

danson went back today...
good thing he made it to KL today. he though he could not make it to KL after the Saturday incident..
yes.. i almost Punch my own best friend.
We all had limits, but when it reach to my limits.. i swear to God, i would Hit you! Hurt You! like u never seen before. i would even Kill YOU! i swear! im not being dramatic or what, but im a person that doesn't like to be bother or insulted infront of everyone. he knows his mistakes. and i forgive.
i cant ended up punching my own buddy i've known since we were a kid.

btw u still ow me 50 ringgit u bet me..

and. im not angry at you..

altho i was suppose to be happy. but i ended up again with this feeling of being Alone.
reasons.
John will be leaving to KL next month.
Cyril will be leaving to KL next month too..

All my buddys are leaving..

im happy to get to know the 4 of you..

all the memories since sunday school,secondary school,futsal and all the stupit things we do together as friends.

im particuly sad. i am.

it will be the most quiet moment in my entire life Next Month.

Danson,Aldrich,John and Cy..sorry for all those damn fucking mistakes i've done.

John my good buddy

Danson my childhood friend..not

Cyril the guitarist expert

and finally..Aldrich. Never really get a good picture with him..but there he his next to Danson.

Good Luck in everything u do guys

Cheers..and God Bless

The Invasion Begins

What i wanted to kick start my holiday is

a good movie!

Transformers 2!!
i'll be watching this on its OPENING NIGHT!

CANT WAIT! =)

and whats more to come from the movie is the soundtrack!

New Devide from Linkin Park was a great single and soundtrack!
i suggest everyone to watch their new video..
which was cool!

The E.N.D

Finally

our project has come to an end!
so does our semester 2

altho its holiday for us,we still went to campus just to hang out
our 2 months holidays will be damn boring
exception for the RAINFOREST FESTIVAL!!!

cant wait for july...

and august!
that is our sem 3..if i make it
dear god i hope i make it to sem 3!


after presentation...

and finally our group photo.. =)

after our presentation, we all went out to hang out for awhile...but sadly it was not as better than last sem,this sem everyone seems to be seperated..
wish it was like last sem where everyone get along with each other

went to the airport yet again today..
just to say goodbye to alicia who's going back to KL
i dint get much time to hang out with her for her 1 week holiday..hoping to spend more time with my best friends..
its sad that everyone is leaving soon.

one to france

one to KL

and i'll be at KL next year..which im hoping to be a good year for me there..

staying low profile is all i can think.

18 Days To Go and Counting

My sem 2 is coming to an end...very soon..

still have few assignments left..

if i dint send it by this week....IM DEAD!!!!

Next week i'll be having 2 presentations and 1 final exam!!

Im ready for the group project assingments,but the individual...where i have to explain why i choose the painter,why this type of painting and all that...i dont know whether i can do it...

while i dint even study for my final exam of Malaysian studies...

huh.

damn..

i know i can do it...

i know i can..

i wont give up..

and yea...the worst has come...next sem..that is semester 3..i think i'll be going Cyberjaya!
crap...
its not that im not ready to leave..
but i just want to stay here with my best buddies,the chepness of the food here..
free place to stay..
and all i could think about...

i'll see what comes in the next few months..

here are some glimps of our Batik Project

The two master of Batik...fidrus and ageng..


This is only half of the work...its actually finish...
i'll post the picture soon enough...

Happy Gawai Everyone!!!

Hope Decays

Its week 14...
my 2nd sem is coming to an end soon..
wondering why the time pass by really fast...

July will be my 3rd sem...if i make it..

i dont wanna leave to early...
sem 4(next year) means i HAVE to..wait,compulsory!! move to Cyberjaya..
Not interested in Cyberjaya at all....no offence,but im just not interested in KL
i just wanna finish my diploma here or either get a 2 semester at UK or US..
thats where i wanna be...
I dont care bout swine flu.....i just go there to pursuit my study...
i dont care how hard it is to live alone in another country..but hey...its worth it..

having a Recycle Day today at Campus...why am i not there yet??
i'll be going now..will upload picture on the event..

Borneo Beats awaits me!!

I was left 4 dead in left 4 dead..

The obsession over the game...

i just dont know how to explaine...
every week...
at least 3-5 times we'll be playing at the cyber cafe just to play the game,even tho we can play at our own house..
but its more fun when you play with your friends...especially being the infected!!

Me,John,Cy,Raymond..

we just cant get enough of this!!

The few reason why we like to play this game...we just love to blow those suckers up!!!

by the way...we made a good team..

anyone interested...just chat with me through my chat box here...

we would love to challenge YOU!

R.I.P
IRWING LAJA

Altho i dont really know you well...but you'll be remember by your friends,family and the whole Limkokwing Borneo students!!


rest in peace buddy.

God bless you

New Divide is coming!

JUNE 26

Transformers will be officially release!

thats not the only thing im exited about..

"NEW DIVIDE"

the new title and soundtrack for the Transformers:Revenge Of The Fallen by
Linkin Park!

Yup...new song, means new album...soon...i guess..

tho im busy..

still will find a way to Blog these days

been playing Left 4 Dead at Mad Cafe for 1 week..5 times

I guess me,john,cy,theo and raymond just cant stop playing...

FINAL PROJECT

IN

PROGRESS

....

BUSY

NO TIME TO BLOG

AND WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING HERE?????!

WATCH CROW ZERO TO RELIVE MYSELF

good movies helps...

Friends

At first it was such a bad month for me..

for being emo and depressed..

I dint know what get me that day..
But im just tired of it...

No more Emo,Depressed and Sadness..
There's no point of being what can really hurt you the most..

Now

It's different..

Why?

....
Friends
They were there since the beginning,to help and listen...those are friends for..
No one could live without friends..

Im happy again, with that smile on my face..it helps, cause i can concentrate on my assingments...when i was still emo, i couldn't concentrate to do my work...and it suxs! my assingments are all due now..and im racing to finish it...i dint sleep,eat or drink just to finish my assingments...and i dint know how easy it was when i do it! heh..damnit...my ideas always comes last minute...

Everyday is still exactly the same tho...just that i dont drive anymore...since my brother already finish his course in KL..

Oh well..at least im not tired..

Im a happy guy now..
April and May was a great month for me...everything work out perfectly...


Wouldn't forget this...

So please..try to make me happy..not emo anymore..


or else....

K A Z O K U FAMILY

The Kazoku family was born...

We were just like a family since the beginning of college ...

Designing stuff or t-shirts
Doing crazy stuff
Hang out
Talk Crap
Do assingments...slowly...
and some other stuff..etc

glad to be part of the family

The Family





Shuq

Melvin


Me(Tim)


Zami

Qawieem

Elandy


Im happy to have such a great friends..like these people..

35 days later....

Its been a really long time i dint update my blog....

Alot of things happen in that 35days time...some of it were the happy times,sad,and depressed...

I've decided to change myself from the most emo and depressed person ever to a happy go lucky...none of my friends like to see emo,they all know me well...the person who always smile everytime i enter the class...laughing in class,doing crazy stuff with my buddys.. for some reason i've been emmo for the past week...and none of them like who i was that time...some of my friends even told me not to be emo or else she'll smak me! I do realise i have a caring friends..... thanks all..

I know there's no point of being sad and depressed always....what do we get from it??? NOTHING!!
so yea...id rather be happy now...

anyway...


the past 35 days has been great... I join in the Breeze Model Seach with Limkokwing..i join cause i was challenge by my lecturers and friends...*damn*..
Altho i dint make it to the top48..but im happy enough to see my friends were in the list...

2 days ago went to watch X Men:Origins:Wolverine!!! finally i get to see a movie that reall satisfy me enough!! whoever says it boring and suck!! well u dont deserve to watch a great Marvel frachise movies....im a big fan of x men since i was a kid!!


going to watch the movie again this saturday...cant wait!! =)

thats all from me now....

Faith In need

hate

anger

sad

emo

..............................

what else can i say now.....

how i wish i was somewhere else where problems doesn't follow...

i want to go away...

away..

far away....

where lonely meets loneliness of me...

i guess me being alone...is better...

god..

only you can explaine whats going on with me...

im not alright

im broken..inside..

i show my fake smile..everyday...

why..

tho..im thankfull for my friends who were there to cheer me up...

melvin,jason,zami,qawieem thx for the help...

since the beginning of sem 2...we hang out everyday and talk crap..

doing assingments and play games...

i know i need to face my own problems...but it really is distracting me in my studies...

i would stare and day dreaming...

thinking

thinking

all day long....

i needed faith in myself...

only god can explain

i've never said a prayer before in my life...

never...

starting tonite..

i will..

Every Day Is Exactly The Same

I belive i can see the future
Cause i repeat the same routine

wake up
drive
class
eat
class
drive
eat
watch tv
online
sleep

read from the beginning again and again...that's what i do everyday

i think i used to have a purpose
but then again, that mite have been a dream....
i can feel their eyes are watching
in case i lose myself again
sometimes i think im happy here.....
yet i still pretend

maybe in 2 and a half year it'll change..or maybe not...how sometimes i wish i could get out from the life i had now and move on to another place or country and start a new life..
i dont know how long can i stand..
some people say to me-get over it,chill,relax,dont think too much or get a girlfriend...
the last one could be worst if i choose it..i dont know what kind of person will i be for the person that im about to share a life with..i can be sucky ''bf'' if u know what i mean..or maybe i just read my own blog to myself and maybe i'll know what kind of person am i...
no realtionships for me for now..
the truth
im not a happy guy
im a depressed, emo, blur, angry...person
maybe there's more than that...
if anyone could add that up...i would love for you to comment on my blog and tell me who the fuck am i!

.....

and you know what's the best thing is about at the end of the day?

Tomorrow it starts all over again...

The little things

I get pissed at little things...
dont know why...
i hated it...
i cant changed myself..
who am i if i cant be me...

why cant i be different..
be different..
i know i changed alot..
but changed to another sick son of bastard that everyone have seen everyday by the streets
i drink
clubbing
smoke

i had to get rid of those fucking habits!
and i mean it...
including my habits of getting mad and pissed at small little things!
i hurt my best friends feelings over some small little things...again!

who the fuck am i...?!
all i know..that im just another stupit person that ever lived..

i know god wanted me to appreciate life more...eventho we've been through the worst day,week or years of our life...
i try to lived up to that...
but i just cant do it..

i can deal with fate..but not the little things

Wrong Turn

Yesterday evening was not a day for me to remember..
I was involved in an accident...where? In front of my house...yeah...stupit right.

I was on my way home..i went inside my house junction already,since my mom wanted to use the other car...so i reverse,and i went to parked near the bus stop thats infront of my house..after my mom reverse..so i went in...i look behind at 1st..the bike was very far behind me...so went to inside junction again, and thats went it happen...it happen so fast that the bike rammed me...it was like nex to me...my seat again!! the guy flew away and so does his bike...(i though it was some stunt man doing some stunts but ended up failing)..heh..

anyway

Went out to check him...thank god his alive! if he dint wear his helmet,...well..u know what will happen...he was bleeding on his left arm...i wasn't panic cause i know it wasn't my fault...cause i remember putting on the signal light to the right! so my mom decided to send him to Timbaland Hospital which was the closest...he had to get some stiches..but he was fine..

So my mom settle about the bike and car...and agreed to pay for our own damage..we want this to be settle quick,since his not from kch...

My car..well..the right door was in a total wreck! my sidemirror was gone! serious...i dont even know where...the rim was wreck too due to high impact..so i got no car for the moment...sights!

FUCK...FUCK! SON OF A BITCH!! i curse all day long cause i dint expect it would happen...

Today went to church...some of my friends ask me wheter im okay or not....im glad to have friends that really care tho..i cant really sleep due to the incident..

Oh well...like sherry said...move on...thx for talking chatting with me yesterday tho...she tried to calm me down...but i always insist...haha...wat the heck...i dont even want to remember what happen anyway...

another way for me to forget about it and make me calm these day...is music!! yeah..listening to Rise Against all day long...even when im on my way to church today...haha...so now..im chill and relex...everything is settle,my car is the garage,thinking bout finishing my assingments,play with my cat and dog...yea..normal life resumes...

this is the song that really calm me down...its Rise Against-Heaven knows....who say punk rocks no longer exist!! this is the only punk rock band that always inspired me and made me move on...

Tiredless

Its been long time i dint blog...the day pass by really fast...dint even realize its March
Class started last week...
Tiring..
Morning to Evening..

Yet

i don't feel like complaining..
receive more assignments...all due next week...
the most enjoying class i've been...Photography Class..
Gonna get my Camera soon-Nikon D60..cant wait...
Cause i ended up sleeping for awhile at Civic Center while others are busy taking pictures of buildings and views..

been playing futsal 3 times in 4 days time...very tiring,yet im not satisfied with my performance..so i decided to play more to improve...my fatigue and fitness is kinda low now...i needed a rest...but i dont seem to care bout it...hope to play futsal again this saturday or sunday...

im becoming tiredless these days...i would wake up at 7am to go to campus..due to parking spot and attendence..

but the one thing i would share to all my friends...i fall for someone for the 1st time in 5 years..but i would take things slow...cause i dont want to ruin the friendship between us.....i dint even think about having relationships for now....the word single is still in my mind.

A day to remember

Cant sleep...due to flu..so i decided to blog about what happen that day...

Reach campus at 6.40am..no one was there...i think,but then i walk around..cant find anyone yet except all the lecturers that are busy doing their stuff..
Went to Design Studio 1,found everyone there...finally..i though i was alone..
The usher had get their make up..i had to cause i was force..they dint do much..so went down to take my pin and pass..i was working with jane..witch i know my job will be change again,and it did..working with jane was the easy thing...lead the parents to their sits and thats all..
When the CM and Tan Sri arrive..everyone gather and take pic..i dint join in cause there was too many ppl...

As they all went up..i was handling the food for the guest..the food,well...i was chatting with this girl..i forgot her name(sorry),but were both ended up being friends...since we both are assign to handle the job..transfer the food to another plate, it was a stupit job to do la..then went the noodles arrive..we smell something really awfull..i knew it was the noodle tho,since it arrive the smell was reallly awfull..i meant how could we serve this kind of food!!
Saw ppl eat it..i lose my appitite..some ppl know some dont...eww..

After all the hard works..we went to the MPR to see some performances from the Africans and Local students..it was great tho..i did take some pic..but it was'nt clear..i'll find the pic if i did found it..

here are some pic that i found....i'll post more soon..

Waiting for the arrival of Tan Sri

There he is....1st time i saw him tho..

Some other Vip's

Saying goodbye to all the Vip's,Cm and Tan sri

This was the ending actually...we took pic wit the Tan Sri!

it was fun..everyone cheer and scream!

U can see me!! haha..it was great that day...my hand was red due to none stop clapping..

more pic to upload soon...

The event end at 2.30pm i think...
Altho we are tired...me and my friends went to eat at Hock lee..since we dint eat for lunch..then we went to the arcade to really some tension..doesn't really work..
So we decided to go play Counter Strike..since there was only 1 girl with us..she join in,she was the one who plan to go play it..so we did..
She was a KILLER in the game..i dint underestimate her since she told me that she use to play it always..the rest..well......they were suprise..haha..then we went home to take a rest..since Class starts Next week..so we wont be going out till sunday..

And i was sick when i got home...due to the rain...huh..
Still i was happy to be part of the event..
and im proud to be part of the Limkokwing Univercity..

Cant wait for Sem 2!

72 hours to sleep

Im tired...
woke up at 5.30am..
went for breakfast then to campus...

crap..im really really tired...
i'll update when my mind is ready to write in the stories about what happen...
it was a day to remember at campus tho..

farewell...update soon enough...

For Warrick

The new season and the 1st episode of Csi was the most saddest episode ever! the second one was in Csi Miami where Tim Speedle was killed in a gun fight...

anyway..

The death of Warrick Brown really was not the thing i expected to happen...i wanted him to live and quit csi..safely..but,he ended up dead...shot by Undersheriff McKeen(u son of a bitch!)...the whole team of csi was fooled by him..on the other hand, Sara Sidle came back!! but with a sad face cause she heard about what happen to warrick...the storyline in this 1st episode was really sad and touching...Warrick died cause he knows the truth,he sees Gil Grissom as a father and he had a son! suprisingly! none of the csi members dint really know he had one...it was greg and sara who find out that Warrick kept a secret from everyone..


this is where everyone cried....yea,i did...warrick brown was my favourite character btw...

Warrick Brown had no family,he was raise by his granmother..but then she died...and that makes Warrick Brown a great character in this series..he said that grissom,nick,catherine,sara and greg was the only family he had..

here's a little preview of the 1st episode of the new season..
btw,the song they use in this promo is called The Funeral by Band of Horses..good choice to make me even sad! =(

Day 2- Boring day

As all the lecturers say,today will be the real rehearsel day...we all will learn what to do and say..
so we did...at 11am..yea,i wonder who set up the time at 8.30am! we had to wait till 10 am then we had a briefing for awhile...My post was change(again) now im the Main Usher...my job is to lead the guest or the Vip to the MPR..and i had to entertain them by talking to them..i dont know wheater i can do it or not..since the the big day is 2moro!!! huh...but all i know,that my post will be change yet again..

At 11am..it was panic for all of us..Cause Tan Sri said he will be coming..and yea,he did...we panic and we immedietly take our positions..and we had to do what were train to do...CLAP! yea..thats it..and he went up by himself..

After lunch,we had another rehearsel at 1.30pm...yea rite!? Me and the whole Ushers were waiting from 1.30pm till 3.30pm...nothing!! We were waiting like some retards!
then,all the lecturers came down and we clap(again) farewell to the Tan sri..cant blame the lectureres...their were doing the hard works there...and they apologize for not informing us...Katrina told us that we all should go home and take a rest cause the nex dat,everyone had to come very early..as in 6.30am or 7.00am!

Its been along time i dint wake up that early...haha...oh well..i'll do my best 2moro..

Chaos

All i want to find is...a simple Formal Black Shirt, sumthing like an office wear...and size S
Its damn hard for sumone like me to find it..
Went to tHe Spring...went everywhere in the shopping mall....none...

Then..i went to Boulevard...there i just went to 1 section..and ask them "do u have a office wear,black colour and size S?" ok...so she went looking for it..they say they dont have anymore..so i said i need any brand la..i dont care cheap of wad...i just need it by tonight,cause i'll be wearing it by 2moro...so the women was like telling everyone there to look for it..they ran around,asking got or not,they even ditch the counter,one of them even scream ''did u found it!!??"...wat the heck?! i wanted them to chill...altho it was almost closing time....but chill...but,their hard work dint pay off...cant find any..bleh..

So,i went acroos boulevard to find..and i did found one...simple..ceh,i could have been like not panic too just to look for a Formal shirt...

Sorry for causiong such a trouble...hehe...

Day 1-Rehearsel

Woke at 8.49am..i though i was late,so i quickly take my shower and all...went to campus..
then..i though i was late,saw Sasya there sitting by herself...i dint even see any of the ushers... ok?...after that i just know that the time had change..10.30am..huh..i could have sleep a little bit longer...damn..went for breakfast then came back...right on time, emmanuel said that there's a short breifing with soo boon and katrina..they arrange who and what were suppose to do...

My Job is boring..all i had to do is stand at the door and welcome them,the worst is i had to show any vip's or people to the toilet..bleh...at least being the usher at the ground floor is fun and they get to take pictures with the Tan Sri and all,its more happening there...while im with other 3 students are going to wait at the 3rd floor and lead them to their sits...we went up and down the whole day...and it was tiring...after the rehearsel,i went off to find my formal shirt with Fidrus..dint find any..

Crap...tired now...and im writing this down just to say it....oh well..2moro have to wake up early again...and we have to wear formal! All black! and the damn wheater is hot!

Feb 14-A day to be alone

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO EVERYONE......whoever celebrates it...

i dont know why..but celebrating this..its just of waste of money...why celebrate in on one particular day if you cant celebrate it anytime...i'll be wondering why....i only know,the flowers and some restaurant will raise the normal prices to a higher prices, does'nt anyone realise that or they just dont care...believe me, avoid restaurants and some flowers and candy shops if had to...

As for me...i wont be celebrating it, cause i'll be in campus doing some rehearsel for next week event and i had to stay at campus till 5pm if im not wrong just because Tan Sri Datuk Lim Kok Wing(if im not wrong) wants to see us...i wonder why...heh,anyway i dont really care if i did go or not...im still not interested in celebrating it at all...SINGLE RULES! haha...

Just came back from Planetshakers last nite,it was pretty cool...too bad i dint join the mosh cause my leg was still injured due to futsal and i had to force myself to stand for 1 hour plus if im not wrong, and why are all the TALL GUYS STANDING INFRONT OF ME!?....and the guy who gave a speech to everyone asking all of us to sit anywhere and really wanted us all to sit..he's just weird..cant he see there's like 100+ ppl inside and no space at all...yea,easy to say "sit anywhere"...me and cyril where thinking the same thing..."Easy for him to say,try standing here wit us".....saw some of my friends...suprise to see Jason,Nat(half way meeting me and screaming at me),Brenda....even Zoe,too bad i dint get to met Stephanie,i knew she was coming...but dint saw her anywhere...oh well..

Its 1.27 am...why am i still awake?

Crap..

I need to wake up early again 2moro...i mean later...heh,my scedule is packed starting this Saturday..

Anyways, Happy Vday.....
Just a reminder...anyone of you dating around Taman Sahabat..better be carefull, cause me,cyril,jon,aaron and theodo will desroy your love moment....we'll go around and sing infront of you!!hahahaha....


im serious

Finally!

Since i got nothing much to blog about..
mite as well just blog bout this...

Got my results the other day...and it turn out suprisingly good..
here are my result...not that good la,but im satisfied enough..

Communication English B+
Creative Studies B+
Life Drawing B
Design Studies B-
Moral Studies C+

I really need to improve my moral...heh...i really suck at it,hope i can improve next sem,plus,it will be 7 subjects more
After getting my results, one of the lecturers just chose me to become an Usher(not the singer) for next week event,due to the Chief Minister is visiting the Campus..I mean, i cant believe im chosen? am i suppose to be happy,surprise? watever...but i accept it since i really want to be active in campus..rather than doing nothing...

Went to check out YouTube..just going through some songs and i found a new song that attracts me..Hoobastank new album For(N)ever,was really cool...i keep on listening to it over and over again..
here's one of my favourites



Enjoy the song...lazy to put up the lyrics..hah..this song doesn't mean anything to me..i just enjoy listening to it,and the lyrics are simply amazing...

Everything

Went to airport AGAIN this morning..Just to say farewell to our friend Prakash who's going back to Melaka...3 weeks felt so short..again,more friends are leaving kuching..sights..

As usual...its a boring day..again..

btw..
Happy Birthday Astika..
altho i dont really know you well in class but hey..your still my friend =) haha..
i know your leaving this Saturday...good luck in cyberjaya next sem.....
if your reading this, were going to have a farewell party for you this friday...well not exactly a party..but we'll plan it..haha..seems that everybody is busy these days..take time to arrange things..

Hope that i'll be leaving in 2 years time...since everyone is rushing leaving this place..im not going to rush myself..just hoping the campus in the US complete fast!!

Valentines Days Next Week...and everyone is asking me to make a plan for someone..but,yea....i dont know wheter i should do it or not....my mind is still selecting Single..
huh...wat the heck...i cant even think straight now...
i can assure everyone that its going to be another lonely valentine's day for me...
still...im happy..

Patience is all i need..

I've made to Sem 2..I gt a letter from my college saying that im in sem 2...
All i want is go to sem 2 and not to repeat Sem 1 like my other friends...All this while i though i dint perform well enough...but hey...im there...hahaha..

Cant wait for Sem 2...just 2 more weeks to go...

tHe weiRdo and the Nerd is now an Emo..

HI? my name is Tim....?

"oh, cut this son of a b***h crap!!.."

I used to be this crappy weirdo kid in primary school,i wonder why i was like that..but there's nothing wrong being a weird kid..i guess...??.. im still weird now..but not as weird last time..i think..i used to talk alot and play around too much till i get myself hurt in primary school...till the whole school knows me...well not all,but just the students that are same year as me..but i dint regret to be who i am..i met some great friends through out the year...and experience some...uhh..nvm..
I remember one of my friend ever ask me a question and i answer..afterthat he thinks im weird for the rest of his life! What the heck...
Here's the Question

I forgot his name : How do sleep at Night?

Me : Well,i forced my head into the pillow till i cant breath anymore..the next thing i know..its morning! =)

OK..afterthat give me a long stare...

Forget bout the past...now moving on to my high school!

My 1st day at school...yea,i was a nerd(thats whats i think)...i kept quiet and my specs is always lowered to my nose and my eye kept staring at ppl(which they think!!)...they hated me for doing so cause they though i was trying to create trouble with them...haha..weirdos! I just dont know why they think so...but then they turn out to be my friends now...

After those nerdy words of mine...i turn to be emo in Form 3...weird,i dint even notice that...i know i kept quiet,minding my own business and get pissed so quickly(there my real anger was born!).....i cursed alot...
Especially now...i kept saying Son of a bitch every time i wan to cursed...

But...everything turns out well..heh..

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PEEPS!!

The other side of me

For the past few months...i had never though i would be such angry person...
I get pissed at small matters and turned it to such a serious matter..
i dont know what's going on with me..
but
im doing my best to chill myself and not to get angry at small matters..
if my habit of these continue,i know it will affect me, my friends and my family...

so...

Im sorry..
especially to..

Sherry
It seems that your the only person i always had been mad at..so, im sorry..i never though i would be such a jerk..i care for you and im sorry if im being such a protective person to you,cause you were my first ever friend at college since the 1st day i've arrive there..i just dont want you to go to wrong path and i just dont want to lose another friend...

John
I've known you for 7 years..sometimes i dont know why i was angry at you for no reason..so,i know that you will always ignore me and try to cool me down when im mad..so thx,im sorry if i ever offended you buddy..

Cyril
Maybe you deserve it,or maybe not..but i was never agry at you,if u ever feel offended..im sorry

Danson
Dude,i've known you since we were a kid..i know you dont remember, but i do...our family are close friends only when they met..we had never had an argument so far....well, maybe once...and it was bad..real bad..i remember i wanted to hit your head with the stick that i had..heh..which you did let me cool down for awhile...
im sorry for what happen in the past....

all im asking is forgiveness...if i dint get any...well maybe i deserve it..4 of you were my best friends,maybe you'll understand what are my intentions..

its a shit life for me...and im changing myself to become a better person..

emo...

im being emo nw...*sights*..
i miss my friends that are leaving to kl...
they were my best friends..
tho...i hv to accept the fact that.. im always alone...

sitting down outside my house and watching the sunset...
it felt so quite...
ive never felt these emptyness before..

i never though i could be so emotional these days...
but then...
hope to see see them soon...

i know i can get over about these in a few days...

Memories..

Went back to Green Road today..just to see some old friends, i had to wake up early due to the raining in the morning...cant even sleep due to cold n fear of flood...again..

Anyway...

After picking up alicia, we went to school just to make a suprise visit cause she only had 1 week holiday here...~sights~ if she had stayed more longer would be better tho,cause sherry's leaving this saturday..

When we arrived at school...to my suprise...the school looks...ORANGE?..i wonder whats going on in school,there's a new pond next to the hall,plants everywhere n even Taylors college banner?...weird...i never though the school would change that much..heh

Went to the Form 6 block..there were many new faces..we did get to met shayndee,shirly,lisa,thevanajahan n syafiq...and suprisingly our Geo teacher still recognise me..haha...he was suprise n impressed(i think) to heard that lycia is studying chef and im studying design..tho,im glad to meet him..

Wish we could stay more longer but we dont much time...but we did make plan to go out this Sunday!! Cant Wait...

U cant hear my bass...cause i sux!

Our servers guild held a praise & worship that monday night(or yesterday night)?, it was great tho.. there was a few mistakes..i dint get to perform, due to my EXPERT-ness of my bass with no sound! yea,laugh..i dint know...and no one give me any sign saying that my bass has NO SOUND! at all....i only can hear it nex to me..thats why i dint care at all...

BUT!!...

Nex month...i had been appointed to lead the band to perform...huh...wat the heck..i'll do my best..
Just hope that i wont be criticize again! like the last time...mempermainkan tuhan!!????? Wtf!!! i dint even know ok!! I'll do my best nex month! and this time my bass will have sound!! HAH!

now...i need to find a few songs..if i can...heh...

do come...NOT!

p a t h o l o g y

" i swear by Apollo, Asclepius, Hygieia and Pannaca...
and I take to witness all the Gods, all the goddesses...

I will prescribe regiments for the good of my patients according to
my ability and my judgment and never do harm to anyone...."

Being a Pathologists is what i always wanted to be. but somehow, im not meant for it. reasons..will i get use to see dead bodies,blood,brains,testicles and some other stuff that can make people puke...i know this job is kinda nasty and dirty...but still,its a job that i would love to have..its not that i want to take advantage on the dead bodies or what,its what i want to for medical,i dont know what am i saying..finding the cause of death or perform an autopsy is pretty cool to me...

Now...as i move on,i know i could not turn back...studying at Limkokwing taking Animation & Multimedia Design is good enough for me..and im proud to be part of the Limkokwing College..they say use all your creativity, and so i will...

I will forget about trying to be a pathologist...

Now i'll be focusing to be a Game or Animation Designner...
the pathologist thing..was just my second choice if i dont get to study in Limkokwing...

Alone

"Such a lonely day"

That's what been going in my mind these days...My sis went off back to KL today, the house has less noise now..bored..i miss my sis..no one to bully or to disturb,even my brother is leaving this week..eventho it has been like this since last year, i just need my family around me...
I even saw danson at the airpot today...he also went off to KL..

~sights~

Everybody's leaving..
Sherry will be leaving in like 11 days time..
John, he could be leaving after taking he's results from college..
So does Cyril after his SPM results...

All my best friends are leaving....

Being alone is not what i like tho..eventho i still have some friends in kch,but my best friends are the people i always hang out with everyday...
They kept asking me to follow them to KL...but i insist..cause all i wanted is to finish my Diploma here and continue my Degree at Limkokwing's new campus in US(if it's completes in time)...and i'll be patience..

All i ever wonder is......how does it feels when every of your friends are leaving....and your the only one that's left....

My new year resolution...

ITS 2009....so? I wanna start over again... the year 2008 has been such a memorable year for me...

Why??....well,i've experience working, hearbreaking moments, saddest days of my life, meeting new friends, old frieds starting to PALAT!....i shall never forget the past, 2008 is a year for me to remember...

NOW

2009

I wanna start over again
Be different(not to say be a jerk or an asshole)
Do all my assingments IN TIME
Find a part time job while studying
Be more manner and appropriet
Stop wasting money
Dont go CLUBBING anymore!!


Its all im asking for...eventho i do not know how to say a prayer,but i know that i can say it, cause recently,i went to Doulos to buy a Bible..& its pretty cool...i never though that i would brought a Bible...

I cant wait for my Sem 2 to begin....& yea,i LOVE ALL MY ASSINGMENTS!! Dont get me wrong or give me the look of death..i learn somethng from all the assingments...

& now i shall leave these spaces wit memories....

2008

Helpless people,dont save them....save yourself...


Stupit stuff that we do...


its all about the view....


I shall keep this pictue in my mind always....

Oh yea...and sherry, i admit...I am going to miss you when you go to KL..
I hope everything goes well for you there..
& i'll hope you'll be Happy always!
Thx for being a great friend....