Love-less

I've been so trying hard

but not hard enough, to try/show and to love someone. which is not my 'gf' but still a friend.

I don't have that much confident in myself nowadays..why?!

I just don't want to ruin a perfect Friendship

I never want to make the same mistakes twice..

But i just kept thinking bout it everyday

plus that Dreams of mine which makes it worst for myself

I think by Christmas I'll  be crazy, unsecured,hopeless and broken

If this problem and attitude of mine goes on

I could end up like HIM!

hopefully not.

that would be THE END of me.