I had to tell the world

I'll be working tomorrow!

finally..no more boredom.

i wanna work work work!

Waiter or Bartender.

i don't give a damn.

Hello 'Sidewalk!'

For Haiti

http://www.musicforrelief.org/

To The Edge.

I just cant get enough of Left 4 Dead 2 these days

it's like every week i had to go to Gizmo just to play it

altho i had the game in my Xbox360

but playing in Pc is still the best experience..

Holidays has been really crappy

went to find jobs on Monday

tried Memories , Sony , Copal Digital..

not much

but i'm hoping and really wanted to work at Sony at Boulavard

i really wanted to work

but at the same thing in my mind

i don't wanna work!

cause there's a Photography Workshop this Friday at Campus..

crap..

i want to go for that too.

i really really really MISS COLLEGE LIFE!!!!

i miss being lazy

i miss being Busy doing ASSignments

i miss hanging out with friends and all the great lecturers and staff!!

i felt ALIVE when i'm there.

but DEAD at home!

Class begins on March!

and now its like 20th of January?!!

how long do i have to wait!!!?

gaahhh!

and out of the blue

I miss someone so badly..

i cant believe i still think about her

but life must go on without her..

hoping for a new leap of change this year..

Was not

I'm so freaking lazy to update these days.

no mood at all.

boredom really struck me well this new year.

crap.

enough of that..

i cant wait for interview tomorrow.

i need that freaking JOB

i need MONEY

like i said.

2010 will be different.

i'll make myself as bz as possible.

so what?

i don't care what others think about me

i am what i am

this is me

i don't give a fuck whoever you are

is either your Miss Popular,Or Mr Popular

well my ass you guys sucks!

people like you only think about fame!

talk shit about us while you dint even realize that your the shitty one's.

ok i had enough.

Lan Cau!

Counting

1 month and 26 days left

to class

what the Fcuk am i going to do that long.

First of all, i would love to go to the Big Night Out at Singapore next month

i have money,passport,transportation,shelter..except for food

but i don't think my parents would be that crazy enough to let me go there alone

unless its KL.

sigh

how i wish to get out of this miserable life

maybe when i started my degree i can go

hopefully

at least to Lasalle College of Art in Singapore would just be good enough

if not

i'll just see what i can do

my holidays are fcuking bored

all i do

watching movie at MBO

went to hang out at town

alone

as always

no one even bother tho

at least i can enjoy the cold breezy night at Waterfront

since it's school time

none of those suckers and son of a bitch is there anymore

what a life eh?

Thoughts

I'm kinda numb

It's so distorted 

You left me here with

This DAMAGE that you caused

My tortured faces

Those fucked up places

In my memories

None of them I've lost

But

I haven't been here long enough to know

Every time I feel this I just LOSE control

Such a cancer on the face of everything that's beautiful

I Wish that this would just go

It's kinda sick

I feel so dirty

I'm kinda tragic

Kinda insecure

But i know

That i'm the only

One that can fix

Whatever wrong i'm sure

But

I feel so Alone

From all I've become 

I'll take you down

I feel so down

I'm water while you drown

You're lifted while I'm down

I'm cancer in your womb

I'm the needle in your spoon

Just go

With all these fucking lies

All these fucking lies

Im not

Why does everyday of my life

i have to go through this kind of shit?

just a little misunderstanding and joking around

they take it serious!

you wanna know the reasons why?

well

here it is.

your my friend, and you know who i am if i play around cause i was never serious at it

i respect your time with family and other friends

i don't bother when you say your not free at all

the thing is

all i wanted is a Friend to hang out with

now tell me..whats wrong with that?

i don't have any cool cousins or brother who brings me to club, or futsal or hagging out

just for your information

I've live my life ALONE for the past years!

ALONE!

Have you ever felt that loneliness,emptiness, that freaking hole is getting bigger and bigger every single day!

fcuk i even go out alone

watch movie alone

drink liquor by my own!

especially when i don't have that much friends to hang out with!

i'm not a cool guy

i gotta admit i'm just typical douche bag loser!

I live my life alone,alone and alone

just to have a Friend to hang out with

is just enough

maybe i don't deserve any friends

i don't think anyone knows how i feel

only God knows how suffering i am

an END to my life would just be good enough for me

and it'll make me

Happy.

A Brave New World

I'm gonna think different this new year.

what  happen before,i'll forget about it.

I need a fresh start

I need a new path

I believe i can make something different this year.

since i'm still gonna live in with the Problems i had last year

I'm gonna have to step up from now on

I don't care who you were before to me

i'll do all my best to dismiss you

i don't give a fuck anymore

i don't

when i was being the friendly type of person last year

all i got was a Backstab

Shitty Rumors

and all that fucking crap of yours

i don't give a Fuck ANYMORE!

this time..i swear to God

  i wont be the same Tim you know.

i swear. I've suffered enough for one whole FUCKING year of 2009!

Finale

After more than 10 templates of gay and liberal layouts.

i finally got one.

I'm tired of doing it over and over and over again..

makes me feel so crappy!

I need a fresh air.

cau.

to be continue.

blog under construction.

Happy New Year Peeps!

fcuk 2009,hello 2010.

Flash back..

The old times

where was it..

why the fcuk am i so emo these days.

today i made a big impact to them by serving after months of absents.

i can say,were they that shock to see me back?

well..i hope not, i wont be returning to that place.

anymore.

but i still pray and believe in God

and i got no hard feelings towards you all anymore.

whats the point for me to hate you all.

i got nothing in return but a smack in the face

next year.

hoping for a new start for myself

..

the best time of my life this year

only once in this year.. i was happy

the rest

it was hell

2009 is the most worst year of my entire life

2010

i hope your better than this year.

Those were the days

Al tho i cant believe that i went to a 4-12year old kids Christmas Celebration that afternoon

 i had no regrets going there

brings back the old times

those memory

child hood memories

i use to celebrate Christmas with joy and happy

now.

it's just too different

i used to remember i had a great time in Sunday School with friends of mine

Cyril, Danson, Aldrich and John(i think he was there)

yea.

those were the times eh

now were all separate.

It felt very different....

little sad tho..

i miss those days...

Merry Christmas Everyone.

Stand in the rain

When i never though it would happen

i'll never really though that it would really happen in the early episodes..

here's a picture of Ellen and Jo Harvelle

Gonna miss them both

now i have to wait till January 21st for the 11th episode..

crap.

i hate breaks..

and i'm still sad to see Jo died...

=[

How I Wish

Hopefully Next Year there will be a Silent Hill: Shattered Memories in xbox360

i am so damn desperate to play that game.

played the 1st ever silent hill in ps1

and it was freaking cool and.. scary.

only for wii,psp and ps2?

crap..

why cant they have such a good game in my console..

i just wanna relive the nightmare.

Its So

I think my Blog look so FREAKING

GAY!

thats all for now.

Arrivederci

The Obsession

Staying in front of my TV for 10 hours non stop

i just cant stop playing Dragon Age Origins!!

Its one of those game that kept you going and going and going!

I've played to Much game these day until it makes me forget what day it is today

For Christ Sake i dint know today was sunday.

sleep late due to birthday bash at Piccadilly's

wake up early by my mom, i dint know why..

to find out that i was going church!

crap.

i need to stop for awhile.

i hope.

i'm playing one of the most anticipated, stunning ,expansive game of the YEAR!!

great...now i'm tempting myself to play again..

off to play games

vegil la macchinetta su di voi

(may the maker watch over you)

oh ya..not to mention. i'm obsess in learning Italiano now

dont ask why

arrivederci

(goodbye)

The Only Exception

its been long i dint update..

my blog looks so

lame

oh well.

my holidays weren't bad at all.

went to Singapore and Johor.

I miss Singapore badly..

everything there is so freaking cool and CHEAP!!

its a dream world for me there.

but i dont have the cash tho..

maybe i would consider studying there. hah!

nw the holidays are bored.

im just staying at home playing my Xbox360 all day.

my hand is really weak now.

i slept late and play games all nite.

 im considering to take a part time job starting next week.

cause i  have no mood to celebrate Christmast due to sum F******S

28 days to go to New Year.

i cant wait for that only..

thats all for now on the lame blogs.org

off to play my games!!

4 months and counting

HOLIDAYS begin TODAYYY!!

submit all my work in the dying minutes. receive lecture from the lecturers due to poor performance

crap..

i have a feeling that i'll fail maybe 1 or 2 subjects..

im begging to have a C or a C-

now off to sleep

and Hello SINGAPORE!!!!

i hope i can get my early Christmas present there!!

~i hope~

and yea..

i have a 4 months holidays..

the title says so.

believe me.

i don't even believe it

0311 a m

still doin my work

assignments is killing me...

wont be sleeping tonite...

all nite work work work work work

i need to change my habit of doing the work last min..

wait

that will never change

its in our blood to do it in the last dying minutes....

back to work

Counting Down

4 more days

and i'm free

off to Singapore!!

4 months of holidays get me thinking that i should really spent my time looking for part-time job

few assignments left

and i'll SCREAMMMM

but sadly

my move to KL next year has been turned down

~ crap ~

but the good thing is

i'll work while studying

more photography events next year

a new year for myself

 

time to change myself

this year has been to worst,bad,lame and heart-breaking time of my life

i hope my Christmas will be good.

cause i'm already in the mood!! =]