What's Love Gotta Do With This?

I celebrated my birthday simple

Went dinner with my Family

Thats all..

And all speculations that my relationship with her seems faded

Well, its just the beginning.

My friends kept Congratulating me

I can accept that

But its not that im getting Married.

My friends were to Exited to hear the news that Im in a Relationship

For how long i was single

They're all tired seing me being alone and emo.

I made the first move, and she accept it.

But the only thing is, will she Love me as much as I Loved her?

I felt like singing this song.

Just to Cheer myself up..

Forgive Or Forget About It!

The way you talk to me is different

Stop pretending that your not mad at me

I know when people are mad at me.

Apolagize is not enough.

Then what else do wanted me to say?

Sing One Republic's Apolagize to you?

That diffenetly wont work...

Or maybe i think too much.

WAY TOO MUCH!

This Is How It Ends

You can blame me for what's been happening

But this is how it ends..

It ends in hated and ignoring each other.

I dont hate you for ignoring me

Cause there's no point if i hated you..Id rather see you hated me.

So, yea..I've got no feelings for You anymore..

Im not desperate

I know how to move on

I can cope with anything thats been happening..

Im a happy guy, so there's no point for me to be sad, emo, depressed..

I know i've said that many times, but my emotions changes at times.

Good Luck with everything

You deserve someone better.

=]

As for me..

Im better off alone

I have Friends

Family

God

Good Music

and

Assignments

Just to make me happy and forget about the past.

Here's a song for you.

If you ever read this.

The Game That Brought Me To Life

Eversince i went to YouTube

I cant stop exploring every good videos

..

But one caught my eye, and it totally reminds me of the old old times when i use to have my Ps1

The videos of Resident Evil 1, 2 and 3:Nemesis.

Not only i watch the gameplay, but the soundtracks from the game itself really remind me.

=[

I wish i had my ps1 back.

Ppl say Ps2 is better, yeah it's better.

But the horror games, it'll never beat the dark and creepy games from ps1

Doesn't matter the graphics are not cool, but the gameplay and the storyline are the one's that i'll be looking for..

Resident Evil 2 was my personal favourites..

Superb!!

Everytime there's movie adaptation from Comics,i'll be very very interested in watching it!

=]

I've just came home from watching G.I Joe Rise of The Cobra!

And it was freaking coool!

Beginning to the end,none stop action!!

I really wanna watch it again and again and again!

Good movie's makes me feel better..

it takes my mind of You.

I felt pathetic

Seems like everything is not alrite at all..

I tried my best to smile

Still you seem pissed

Fine.

If this is how it goes..

Id prefer seperate ways.

You dont know how does it feels to be me

To live this life of mine.

Sure it takes few seconds to reply..

BUT!

At times i CANT! Alrite!

I dont like being mad..especially at you..

Never. I was never mad at you for what you've been doing and all..

This use to happen before, but why now?

Why not few months ago?

Why does it have to be now!?

I felt the burden, heck i even felt so emo!

Everyday i kept thinking about it,

even when i woke up, its the first thing that came out my mind..

I cant sleep at times, and i dint even eat.

My class already started, more and more Assignment is coming up

Plus i mite be working soon.

There's to much stuff i need to think and i cant even think normally..

I felt like breaking down cause you dont seem to understand me..

Yes i tried to msg you, but when you reply saying ''Who's this?''

Makes me think that i dont even know you already.

And im giving up hopes on you.

I never wanted this to happen.

You know who you are.

Crow Zero II

Finally i've watch Crow Zero II!!

Takashi Miike greatest movie adaptation from the japanese manga continues,

this time the movie is set 8 months after the first movie where Genji finally beat Serizawa

As for part II, they're going against Housen. Their fierce rival.

I dont need to tell the synopsis here..better go watch it yourself. I wont spoil it here

This is one of the best Movie i've ever watch.

Tamao Serizawa and Takaya Genji

Genji against the leader of Housen. Narumi Taiga

Beating your heart

I know..
I screwed up...
Im sorry
I know sorry is just word
and it wont change a thing
the way you think about me and all
I Messaged you.
You never replied back.

So..

I understand.
You deserve to be mad at me.

Things i adore...

A picture of London, looks more like Russia to me. But still, its pretty nice view

Some simple random photography.

Here are some arts that i really like..some of this really inspired me to do my work!

This is heaven and hell


I like this picture because of its background and its surrounding..and the way the person edit the picture..not because she's nude!


An explosion of abstract...

I love arts..its like part of me now..
my work may not be as good as the one that i posted..but i know i can improve myself to do better.

Like a drop of blood

Its been weeks i dint update..
i got nothing to blog about except complains...

just got my results this week.
surprisingly
i pass all my 7 freaking subjects!
except i gt a D for my life drawing which i really screw up...
at least i made it to sem 3.

class starts next week, and i cant wait.
im bored
i sleep too much
i even get pissed too much during the holidays..

so i hoped that everything changes next week..
and it will be my last semester here in Kuching..

yes.

Im moving to Cyberjaya next year..

Confuse, happy and sad at the same time..i don't even know how do i feel when i heard the news

I was and always will be

Once i was clueless and pathetic
sitting in front tv
playing video games
getting fat
been cursed by people
and all that shit

I was a Loser!

always and always will be..

when people starts talk shit about me...
without them even knowing that i knew they were talking shit about me..
id keep quiet
cause there's nothing i could do..
even if there is, it'll be worst.
once I've been left out by own best friends and buddy's
i lose hope...
once my love life turn into miserable
i should not be forgive by the person that id tried to love and be with

i deserve to be hated
i deserve to be a Loser
i don't deserve any friends no matter how many fucking times I've said to people that their my best friends!
i dont deserve to be with anybody cause im just another fucking loser who doesn't even know to make a move or to love the person!
i dont deserve anything
i dont.

i wish i could been given a chance
to escape from this pathetic life of mine
away from everybody...

when they ask me to pray
id pray
but i know that this is my life
and it'll never change..
never..

so if there is anybody who hates me
who thinks im a pathetic
loser
asshole
son of a bitch
said that i talk shit bout them when im not
pin point at me for no fucking reason!
said that i dont deserve a friend
and all of those you could think about

well your welcome to say so..

cause i dont deserve any fucking things!!! or anybody!!!
a loser like me wasn't suppose to be here!!
what is the purpose of me being on this fucking planet called Earth!

i guess people just doesn't know how does it fell to be in my shoes..
or to live this life, this pathetic life of mine..

Trave-ling

Will be travelling soon..
Cant wait for friday..
Cant wait for the Manchester United match
Im over exited.

i cant sleep
i cant think well
hell, i cant even eat!

finally a holiday trip with all my buddies..
except for aldrich who just came back..heh..
sorry man..

Just a phase

Results will be out soon..

and im freaking scared

to

FAIL!!

I dont want to repeat

I dont want to study the same thing over and over

I dont wanna be left out

I hope everything will go the way i hope it would..

at least a C in the subjects that im really weak at..

God..help me..

24-7

It's a boring week...
just play futsal
played left 4 dead...again
sleep
eat
Tv

what else....

oh ya..

Cyril's farewell dinner at his house.
i know is a sad day for him..
leaving tomorrow to KL
Wish you all the luck Dude..

Next week..i'll be going to KL too!!
I'll get to watch Manchester United!
Altho my ticket is some sucky sit place..as long i get to see my Favorite team in action against Malaysia.
Cant wait to meet Edwin Van Der Sar, Evra, Vidic, Giggs, Scholes, Ji sung Park, Rooney, Tosic and Micheal Owen!! Yes..Owen..im exited to see the Former Liverpool Legend playing for their own Rivals!! Cant wait to see the Liverpool's fans reaction!!

Altho its a boring holiday..at least i get to sleep 24-7... =)

A tribute to a LEGEND!

1958-2009

Michael Jackson

The inspiring,the entertainer and the King Of Pop
passed away at 2.20pm at UCLA Medical Center

he inspired me in music.
the music
the dance
it was always entertaining..
i grew up listening to his songs

altho im a guy who listen to rock songs.
but his songs are different than any other pop stars..

no one will ever forget his famous Moon Walk
and some of my favorite songs
You Are Not Alone
You Rock My World
Thriller
&
My most favorite
Smooth Criminal!

its too bad that he passed away at an early age(50 years old)...i was shock to hear the news, eventho its a short life for him but his achievement was incredible.it was said that he was working for a comeback show, but sadly..we wont get to see the Greatest Entertainer of all time

R.I.P Michael Jackson

I will always remember your songs and the entertainment that you gave

at the 1995 MTV VMA'S. Micheal was join by Slash for a medly o"Billy Jean" ''Beat It'' "Dont Stop Till You Get Enough'' and ''Black and White"

The First Week Of Silence-week 1

week 1...

its holiday,im happy. for now. i know its gonna be bored for this 2 months. but i can stand it. i know i can.

danson went back today...
good thing he made it to KL today. he though he could not make it to KL after the Saturday incident..
yes.. i almost Punch my own best friend.
We all had limits, but when it reach to my limits.. i swear to God, i would Hit you! Hurt You! like u never seen before. i would even Kill YOU! i swear! im not being dramatic or what, but im a person that doesn't like to be bother or insulted infront of everyone. he knows his mistakes. and i forgive.
i cant ended up punching my own buddy i've known since we were a kid.

btw u still ow me 50 ringgit u bet me..

and. im not angry at you..

altho i was suppose to be happy. but i ended up again with this feeling of being Alone.
reasons.
John will be leaving to KL next month.
Cyril will be leaving to KL next month too..

All my buddys are leaving..

im happy to get to know the 4 of you..

all the memories since sunday school,secondary school,futsal and all the stupit things we do together as friends.

im particuly sad. i am.

it will be the most quiet moment in my entire life Next Month.

Danson,Aldrich,John and Cy..sorry for all those damn fucking mistakes i've done.

John my good buddy

Danson my childhood friend..not

Cyril the guitarist expert

and finally..Aldrich. Never really get a good picture with him..but there he his next to Danson.

Good Luck in everything u do guys

Cheers..and God Bless

The Invasion Begins

What i wanted to kick start my holiday is

a good movie!

Transformers 2!!
i'll be watching this on its OPENING NIGHT!

CANT WAIT! =)

and whats more to come from the movie is the soundtrack!

New Devide from Linkin Park was a great single and soundtrack!
i suggest everyone to watch their new video..
which was cool!

The E.N.D

Finally

our project has come to an end!
so does our semester 2

altho its holiday for us,we still went to campus just to hang out
our 2 months holidays will be damn boring
exception for the RAINFOREST FESTIVAL!!!

cant wait for july...

and august!
that is our sem 3..if i make it
dear god i hope i make it to sem 3!


after presentation...

and finally our group photo.. =)

after our presentation, we all went out to hang out for awhile...but sadly it was not as better than last sem,this sem everyone seems to be seperated..
wish it was like last sem where everyone get along with each other

went to the airport yet again today..
just to say goodbye to alicia who's going back to KL
i dint get much time to hang out with her for her 1 week holiday..hoping to spend more time with my best friends..
its sad that everyone is leaving soon.

one to france

one to KL

and i'll be at KL next year..which im hoping to be a good year for me there..

staying low profile is all i can think.

18 Days To Go and Counting

My sem 2 is coming to an end...very soon..

still have few assignments left..

if i dint send it by this week....IM DEAD!!!!

Next week i'll be having 2 presentations and 1 final exam!!

Im ready for the group project assingments,but the individual...where i have to explain why i choose the painter,why this type of painting and all that...i dont know whether i can do it...

while i dint even study for my final exam of Malaysian studies...

huh.

damn..

i know i can do it...

i know i can..

i wont give up..

and yea...the worst has come...next sem..that is semester 3..i think i'll be going Cyberjaya!
crap...
its not that im not ready to leave..
but i just want to stay here with my best buddies,the chepness of the food here..
free place to stay..
and all i could think about...

i'll see what comes in the next few months..

here are some glimps of our Batik Project

The two master of Batik...fidrus and ageng..


This is only half of the work...its actually finish...
i'll post the picture soon enough...